The way of the Hans

2008-09-06T22:05:00.001+08:00

Show me a garden that's bursting into life
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I just lay here

2008-09-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

kill time before time kills you

He takes you out and he takes you up
'cause he can show you so much
I go to bed and tomorrow again
there's a lot of work to be done

He gives you gold and he'll promise you
the whole world will be yours
I just can tell you I love you so
even though my odds are low

The fancy cars and the restaurants
you're just so fond of the man
Sometimes I wonder if you are blind
can't you see, he's got dirt on his mind

Waves and more waves
never one the same.

2008-08-18T21:45:00.006+08:00

there comes a point in a boy's life
where he would look for something
and that something can only come from inside
and thats when men start to have faith'.

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart

angels and devils.
after making a wrong turn
you then became lost not knowin
how you ended up where you are
the devils took that chance to trap you with their
unseen chain and shackles
which after a while had became hard to let loose.

upon knowing
you turned to the angels
who now refuse to let you enter without
properly acknowlodging that you're a part of them
but then again we all werent born to walk , werent we?
the people , w/o you bearing the sign of an angel
they then took that you werent of their side
thinking you have an alliance with another.
therefore that leave you with not much prerogative
but to find peace in the words you scribe.
hopefully one day the path will be aligned back to what it was.
What more can they tell you?
I am neither good nor bad but a man,
and they will then associate the danger
of my life, which you know
and which with your passion you shared.

when in doubt , look at the moon.
yue liang dai biao wo de xin

"Finally, I looked into my own heart
and there I saw Him;
He was nowhere else."
Rumi a 13th century persian poet.

2008-08-13T00:33:00.001+08:00

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you
But make allowance for their doubting too,
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master,
If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much,
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And--which is more--you'll be a Man, my son!
--Rudyard Kipling

2008-08-12T04:08:00.009+08:00

"Life is bigger
It's bigger than you
And you are not me
The lengths that I will go to
The distance in your eyes
Oh no I've said too much,I set it up
That's me in the corner
That's me in the spotlight"

to run away from something is to lie to yourself abt it
sooner or later aft all those lies ,it is
inducted as truths and when u start to question
whether they are actually true ,it becomes you
when to start of with u actually know
the answer as you created them

thats when ur living a lie which is the truth
but then again without those lies u've created
u wudnt have known so many truths
and that perhaps is the truth of you.
even though it hurts, like it or not
its you , the lies and truths.
and as logical as that what started of as lie
needs to end the same way.

*Every Warrior of the Light
has felt afraid of going into battle.
Every Warrior of the Light has, at some time in the past,
lied or betrayed someone.
Every Warrior of the Light has
trodden a path that was not his.
Every Warrior of the Light has suffered for
the most trivial of reasons.
Every Warrior of the Light has, at least once,
believed he was not a Warrior of the Light.
Every Warrior of the Light has
failed in his spiritual duties.
Every Warrior of the Light has said 'yes'
when he wanted to say 'no.'
Every Warrior of the Light has
hurt someone he loved.
That is why he is a Warrior of the Light,
because he has been through all this
and yet has never lost hope of being
better than he is.
~ Paulo Coelho *

maybe its that simple.

2008-08-08T04:18:00.002+08:00

Art finds her own perfection within,
and not outside of herself.
She/Art is not to be judged
by any external standard of resemblance.
She/Art is a veil, rather than a mirror.

to each his own life
to each his own morality
to each his own beauty ,
to each his own.

2008-08-08T04:15:00.002+08:00

this is in tribute to working on the set.

You know the words
"Once Upon A Time"
Make you listen?
There's a reason.
When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter
or happy ever after
your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head
You are the music in me

ooo my nephew and nieces are
gonna watch the show tmrw im excited for them
i was dying to go for this type of shows when i was young.

2008-08-08T04:00:00.002+08:00

ok i've posted a few post at a time
reason bein im gonna go on a long 'trip'
haha lol so yea
if ya know what i mean nigger.

even though we are not there
we would forever be there.

i had a vision in my dream
that is to go back and chase ur shadows
u could be seen in everyday life
the feelings we had
had brought me there

suddenly my steps were stop
a thousand faces questioned me
and so they said
stop chasing dream that are not true.

bt today itself is like a dream
therefore let it come , let it come
to your heart
i know im nothing yet ,
but dont let it stop you
this time.

see ya again aight.
you'll always be a part of me
im a part of you indefintely

2008-08-08T03:58:00.001+08:00

She's alone,
so I feel that she's afraid.
Turned to stone.
all of those who look her way.

Could it be,
that nobody understands?
Could it be,
that she only needs a friend?

Medusa bleeds, and no one is ever there.
She bleeds, and there’s not a soul who cares.
Medusa bleeds.

She's afraid,
and so I feel that she's alone.
Look away,
or forever live in stone.

Could it be,
that no one really knows?
Could it be,
there is more than that which shows?

Medusa bleeds, and no one is ever there.
She bleeds, and there's not a soul who cares.
Medusa bleeds.

Could it be, could it be,
that all she needs is just a friend.
Medusa bleeds,
and she will bleed until the end.

Medusa bleeds, and no one is ever there.
She bleeds, and there’s not a soul who cares.
Medusa bleeds.

Could it be, could it be,
Medusa's bleeding for a friend.

2008-08-08T03:53:00.001+08:00

Walk upon the sliver beach,
let the sand erode the skin,
guide yourself into the sun,
and melt away your sin.

someone wrote this one the net
thought it was funny
funny but kinda true.

EVERYONE LOVES, NO HATE TO HIDE.
EVERYTHING'S GOOD, THERE IS NO WRONG,
IF THE WHOLE WORLD SWALLOWED IT,
EVERYONE WOULD GET ALONG...

WORLD PEACE I HAVE A VISION,
CANNOT BE OBTAINED THROUGH RELIGION;
BUT CAN BE RESOLVED CHEMICALLY.
THERE IS A GOD CALLED XTC!

The beauty of a woman
isn't in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries,
or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman
must be seen from in her eyes;
Because that's the doorway to her heart,
the place where love resides.

The beauty of a woman
isn't in a facial mole;
But true beauty in a woman,
is reflected by her soul.

It's the caring that she cares to give,
the passion that she shows;
And the beauty of a woman
with passing years only grows

2008-07-31T03:09:00.005+08:00

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was scared, I was scared

im not as talented as other ppl are
not as suave as they are
not as smart in makin choices as them
not as nice as i should be
not as good in relationship
not as rich as of
but its not like its a choice
i know all of that , im ok with it
i want to be me , i dnt mind not being special
but why do they throw stones at me?

In a beautiful world
i wish i was special

"At times like these it's hard to find
the right words to say,
And I know that words alone
won't take the pain away.
But, I know a man who sits high, and looks low,
And He is saying, "My child, you're not alone."

for better, for worse,
for richer, for poorer,
in sickness, in health
And nothing else matters

ps : i played against dalian shide an sleague outfit ,
and boy were they fit.

2008-07-30T03:34:00.004+08:00

Like everybody i often wanted
more of life ,
i wudnt lie , i regreted wantin more
like i said in my previous post we grow to realise
tt we actually know less abt life not more.
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all- killers

i was dreading the platuea that seems avoidable
when u reach ur late 20s where life would go downward onwards
but somehow im lookin frwd to tt stage in which
there is more stability in life
a certain peace for not having too high ups and not too low downs
a balance

So I'll wait 'til kingdom come.
All the highs and lows are gone.
A little bit longer and I'll be fine.
I'll be...fine - jonas brothers

how do you fight for something
that doesnt want fighting for?

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the Tube

2008-07-29T21:42:00.003+08:00

in the early morning run
with my full pack on my bag
and my shirt is full of sweat ,
im a long long way from home.

With clouds above me
and trees swaying
to show that the wind is acompanyin me ,
i witness the sun setting to sea
with ppl at the back of me runnin their day by
i sat in wonder if ever we would conflux

there are two school of thoughts
the sunset and the sunrise
one would say its better for it to start
and some its more worthwhile to watch it end
but one thing certain is one cant get by w/o the other.

being king is actually up for the taking
i thought as i grow up , i would know more
there was a point ;
where i thought i knew everything
that is when i realise i actually know nothing.
beauty is simple if its viewed and judged with the eyes ,
beauty is a curse simply put voiding ppl the chance
to actually explore whats more beautiful than ur face
but then again thats what ur selling so no qualms there.

in the early morning run.

like everybody i want more
more of life.

2008-07-27T01:24:00.005+08:00

i'll see you again , be it in this lifetime
or the next - paris of troy

Eighty percent of the world's wealth
goes to the top one percent of the pie
is it me or i feel that sumhow a revolution
should occur to topple this age old culture
a wealth revolution LOL.

maybe the 99 percent were too busy getting high
talking abt that
hw do you chase a high
when its so way up high ? srsly
mike jagger sud answer it since he's 65 today
and has spent alot of years figuring it out ;
let music be abt the passion
not fashion folks.

but all's good i like wt xiaxue said
"i rather be bankrupt than lose my dignity"
at least being penniless i can still hold
my head up high , well said.
its impt to stay righteous even when wronged.
its up to the people to find their own truths.
or maybe if will arise smday , hopefully
do nt harbour ill thoughts
cause , we dnt want be em nw do we?

he who dont fear death , fears nothing

ps : the cartoon bratz is kinda nice haha.

2008-07-25T04:38:00.008+08:00

To the one i'll wait
when the stars align
and circles combine.

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice

Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
For it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore
When I get really lonely and the distance calls its only silence
I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

So
If you ever want something
You call, you call
And I'll come running to fight
And I'll be at your door
And there's nothing worth running for

I'm scratching at the surface now
And I'm trying hard to work it out
So much has gone misunderstood
This mystery only leads to doubt
And I didn't understand
When you reached out to take my hand
And if you have something to say
You'd better say it now

Cause this is what you've waited for
Your chance to even up the score

A whole new world
That's where we'll be - hans.

2008-07-24T04:41:00.004+08:00

all this was taken frm a friends blog ,

Hans pointed out the beautiful sunset in the horizon.
Indeed, that was the mark of the end of a super great trip.

The wind was blowing the scent of the sea
euphoria in my heart every second of time
the music dancing seductively around everybody
and without a single worry on my mind

"Cos you choose how your life goes,
you choose how you want the strings to be pulled,
how the picture is to be painted."
The hope to love once again

2008-07-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

i am like the wind

poverty of understanding ,
poverty of self-respoect ,
poverty of belonging ,
poverty of love.

2008-07-23T17:40:00.007+08:00

"Wisest is he who knows what he does not know"

I hold in my hand a lifetime,
but to you it may be just sand.
I hold in my hand the memories
of a long forgotten land

So many fish in the sea then I'm fishing for love
So many fish in the sea then why don't we go for a swim

Don't know where she lives or where she may roam

2008-07-18T01:43:00.003+08:00

maybe u dnt deserve this , nevertheless
anyways.

your post ,
Clare bear ,
Husna

the face is pretty
the mind is prettier
the heart prettiest
you ,

for you i played myself dry.
i wish you love

hold your own ,
know ur name ,
and go your own way.

it back to this familliar room.
i need to remember who i use to be.

2008-07-18T01:35:00.001+08:00

My fear is fear.
im afraid to be afraid

ppl are too busy to listen , to talk , to feel.

remember this
the only person pulling you down
is yourself.
i just realise this while running.
i keep asking myself to stop
or for that matter in life ; r/s fship etc

im the one destroying it.
and finding ways to destroy it.
its high time that i actually break out of it.

i cant keep losing things , its time to keep them

This can never really end, its infinitely sad
Can someone tell me when
Something good became so bad
So if you have a cure
To me would you please send
A picture of my life
With a letter telling how
It should really be instead

Let what be , be
Live and let die.
Life goes on.

2008-07-18T00:51:00.005+08:00

Love come to those who wait (take a look at florentino ariza)
if you are not too long , i will wait here for you all my life
and i've waited a month to publish this post

After comin back frm a mad 'trip', (which was long overdued)
i finally came back to realise what a mess i've since created
there was some truth in all of it
but truth often goes unnnoticed ,
lies get more attn
alas.

life's great , seriously
i've been thru ups and downs in this month alone
thats its kinda amusing to think abt it
i cant really laugh , im suppose to still be sad.
they say measure life nt by the number of breaths u take
but by the number of time life takes ur breath away tt kinda shit

for me i think ,
its measured by the number heartbreaks i make and take
when would it finally stop?
i went to the place that i was running frm

You need to act in your life,
not react to the actions of others - fster daily hscope

You dont need anyone's approval to fall in love with someone

ps : never date sisters , blood's thicker
now its time to put the boots back on.
The course of true love never did run smooth

2008-06-11T06:01:00.001+08:00

dear god whoever you are
pls forgive us all.
i see you in all of us

Sex , drugs and hard trance

Sur, Sura, Sundari

2008-05-16T01:07:00.014+08:00

wont you pls nurse me back into health
im a wounded soldier

wherever i turn arnd its either a new romance that's blossoming
or a ripe romance tt is coming to an end
why cant there be more stability in this thing called love
eventho when ur surrounded by filth
its still a choice to be dirt.

smile and ppl smile with you
the quest is too look for one that'll cry with you

pictures for you guys

The tag reads super shiok
When hans was drunk

2008-05-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

2008-05-15T02:43:00.004+08:00

I shall post all the picture in another post

I have been to alot of places arnd the world
ok not that much much but quite satisfactory

India , Australia , Indonesia ,Thailand , Middle east and etc

but none could compare to the experience i've got in this trip
i swear
in one word if i could describe it , its
BEST
not good but best , solid best
it wasnt best because it was good
it was best because it was good plus bad
so now we know its not only the place
but the people , everythin and anything

the best trip ever
we had the best dj , the best of friends
before all that this is the theme song of the trip

It felt so real,
At night I dreamed of you.
You seal my lips
With the most delicious kiss.

Pictures are running,
Running through my mind,
Hurting me,
And I need to find a way to you.
Pictures are running,
Running through my mind,
Hurting me,
And I need to find a way to you.

Day1
I was stopped by custom officer for abt half an hour in sg
they dint let me to cross the border hows that for a good start
haha so we made our way to seremban then pd with alot of
stupid antics and whacked stories along the way of course

upon reaching pd we had no room
in a small town where 10000 people are gonna party
its a feat to find a decent hotel room
so we buddied up with the locals
who gave us numbers to call , people to look for
so eventually we boarded the taxi who brought us to the wrong place
we got scolded by the security guard who in turn
gave us a place to stay damn near to the party
not too shabby in the end

haha was damn whacked so after some maggi goreng and beers
we shaped up and went to the party
what would be a rave w/o some candies
we spoke to sm ppl on route to the party at the toilet
so wala we were settled for that night

the first day we explored the place
point to note that ferry corsten spin some
solid tracks

after ferry was the great TIESTO all hail
the music was so great
that i put on my headphones and dance on to his tracks
on the way back to buy our burgers
good stuffs

we met , talked to the local , foreigners
everyone jst mingled , simply awesome
the people at the party was like there was no cliques
everybody effing party together in unison
same moves , everybody helping each other out
looking out for one another
strangers randomly shaking hands
sharing smiles w/o any lustful feelings
all pure , raw emotions
damn how can i forget that first day
ouh yea we got caught by the rain otw back
so three guys with a burger had to run back
in the rain hahaha..singing songs of course

when we thought it cudnt get any better
wait for day2 of tiesto party
Day2

As we woke up
now assuming we woke up at 5 at which we did
we had to up our malaysian prepaid
yup u got that right we have a malaysian sim card
kudos balls
so we made our way to dinner
we had everything u cud imagine
seafood , meat , tom yam
three ice lemon tea each
and the damage set us back
lesser than if i were to catch a movie
we bought hard liquor and got our ass back to the hotel
to shape up for day2 of tiesto madness
When you step into the q for day2
u know that there was so many people going for the party
i would say more than 10 000 people turn up for day2
day2 was phenomenal we saw sg friends
hw happy we were hahaha
we were among the few ppl in frnt of the stage
and roughly an hour before the concert end
two angel came from the sky
and dance with us
amazing simply amazing
music , friends , love , beauty
what else do you need
contendness was the feeling
even for its for a short while
its was enough
once is better than never
to actually to be able to be that close to a beauty that i barely know

A song

"Ive never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight
Ive never seen you shine so bright
Ive never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance
Theyre looking for a little romance
Given half a chance
And Ive never seen that dress youre wearing
Or that highlights in your hair
That catch your eyes
I have been blind

The lady in red is dancing with me
Cheek to cheek
Theres nobody here
Its just you and me
Its where I wanna be
But I hardly know this beauty by my side
Ill never forget the way you look tonight
Ive never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight
Ive never seen you shine so bright you were amazing
Ive never seen so many people want to be there by your side
And when you turned to me and smiled it took my breath away
And I have never had such a feeling such a feeling
Of complete and utter love, as I do tonight
I never will forget the way you look tonight
The lady in red"

so otw back
weird things happen
bla bla bla

went hm slpt thru then took a cab to kl
i swear the driver is a F1 driver
maybe needs some polishin here and there
but he sud be good hahaha
so we booked a hotel in kl
our hotel directly below is a 24 hour minimart
it was so convenient i tell you
like if u thirsty the fridge is the shop fridge literally hahaha
so we slept then and then later after dinner at
A & w the girls picked us up
to watch ftball at hartamas square area
to watch the killer deciding game between man utd and wigan

i did a thing that i nvr thought i would
i down a graveyard
if you guys know me
i nvr was drunk in my life hahaha
so this was certainly an experience
i sure hope i dint made that big a fool out of myself hahah
so man utd won omg

to take a cab 3 plus in the morning in kl
take real guts
but a man gotta do whats a man gotta do
in times of good and bad

so after beef noodles at gangster uncle shop
its hotel sweet hotel (home sweet home) geddit
hahaha so mon we went shopping actually i was eating more than
shopping i had aunt's anne , famous amos
u guys wudnt believe what happened a girl followed me arnd
then we talk to a milf from holland
who tried her husband clothes on me
hahaha u cud see the lust in her eyes
lol so when we are kl and we are rushing what do we do?
we play cs hahaha ...
after changing and all we headed to a club which is definitely not
our age grp kinda but played some decent songs

we took a cab there bought a beer drank it and left
ahahahha wtf?haha

a friend in need is a friend indeed
we were suppose to wake up at 10 on tuesday
but all of us only awoke at 12 and rushed and all
so we were good only at one
had to rush shopping for things at chinatown for our family
so aft that is was back to sweet old singapore
we might have left kl , msia
only to bring back memories
but not only that forge relations

i wouldnt settle for only memories
i would fight for the picture in mind
to be a reality more than an illusion

thanks to anyone that made it possible

pd , kl 08
was superb

2008-05-14T00:31:00.002+08:00

I just came back from pd and kl
am so tired will post trip pict and stories tmrw
for now this

nvr would i have thought
i wud be singing this

All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standin' here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye

But the dawn is breakin', it's early morn
The taxi's waitin', he's blowin' his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go

'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh, babe, I hate to go

you're just too far , too pretty , too special

2008-05-08T21:22:00.002+08:00

Pd , Admiral Marina , Tiesto ,
Ferry corsten , Cosmic gate
brothers , friends
here we come.

2008-05-08T17:52:00.002+08:00

When i was high ....

its hard to explain at once what we are thinking
to potray that state of mind to ppl
cause it'll pass as soon as you process it into a phrase
but we will try at least.
for words are the only undying testament to the cause

what is love but a feeling
what is me if not for my soul

we fail to show what we feel
but tt doesnt equate to we not feelin it.

we lead diff lifes
we wear diff clothes
smtimes they make us seem so different
but lets give a helping hand when it is dued
maybe im here to help you or one day its you i'll be needing on the streets

i live only once
i love only once.

give me names
that doesnt affect my soul
state of mind , yes
but to know that what im feelin is pure
that the sense in it
and to remain intact frm within

its ok if we dont cross each other again
all im just saying
is im leaving a memento
in the world that i once graced
a shoutout so that
ppl know that what i believe still prevails.
that it wasnt a myth wasnt a tale

u wont get the effect u are on to sumone else's life
we lead far too complicated lifes
for us to put logic into it

some of us build buildings ,
some create marvels ,
some achieve greatness ,
some are geniuses ,
some came and brought something hm.

we all are one.
no you no me
WE

this is my journey
to love , to live is not a choice
to believe , to give now thats the choice.

Brothers for Life.

2008-05-07T00:53:00.001+08:00

in an ideal world we would get high every night
and be happy, ideally

'Without leaving his door
He knows everything under heaven.
Without looking out of his window
He knows all the ways of heaven.
For the further one travels
The less one knows.
Therefore the Sage arrives without going,
Sees all without looking,
Does nothing, yet achieves everything.' - Lao tzu

2008-05-06T14:11:00.002+08:00

i need to buy a box
to place a heart

if anybody is sad and wants to be happy
i've got the remedy.
seriously..
100 percent chop chop
chop chilli chop

2008-05-06T13:54:00.003+08:00

i just love this french influenced song

But where do you go to my lovely
When you're alone in your bed
(Won't you) Tell me the thoughts that surround you
I want to look inside your head, yes I do

So look into my face Marie-Claire
And remember just who you are
Then go and forget me forever
But I know you still bear the scar, deep inside, yes you do

for the moment
and now its the moment
to pack my bag
sweet.

2008-05-03T18:36:00.002+08:00

when you thought its over ,
its done

but u still have a chance with yourself.
a beautiful release into your own life

hans hans hans.
we drift deeper , into the sounds.

im officially a trance lover.
as the rush comes.

2008-05-02T18:09:00.001+08:00

fuck

2008-05-02T10:25:00.002+08:00

Ur scared but in the jungle the
person that you turn to might be the wolf
who's gonna eat you up

we nearly died thrice today.
well done hans

it gets too boring smtimes

life ur live till love is found
till love is gonna get you down

'Life may not be the party we hoped for,
but while we're here we should dance.'

2008-05-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

I close my eyes
Only for a moment, then the moment's gone
All my dreams
Pass before my eyes, a curiosity

Same old song
Just a drop of water in an endless sea
All we do
Crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see

Now, don't hang on
Nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
It slips away
And all your money won't another minute buy
Dust in the wind

enjoy urself while u still can folks
this is for you.

2008-04-29T17:42:00.002+08:00

come repeat after me

pata - pata - pata - pon (onwards)
pon - pon - pata - pon (attack)
chaka - chaka - pata - pon (defend)

will teach u others when u become smarter.

2008-04-28T23:16:00.003+08:00

It began with a smile
grows with a kiss
and ended with a teardrop

the show 'love in time of cholera' is a must watch for romance enthusiast
seriously..
highly recommended

i am florentino ariza.

2008-04-27T01:16:00.002+08:00

"Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation "- kahil kibran.

2008-04-25T02:29:00.001+08:00

2008-04-24T00:44:00.002+08:00

Shakespeare once said this,
My only Love sprung from my only Hate

I will say this
My only Hate sprung from my only Love

2008-04-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

so pd is only in two weeks time
3 solid days of fun.
equation

Friends + music + booze = fun. ------- eqn1

(Port dickson - phuket )+ shanghai = more money spend ----- eqn2

yea for eqn 2 im gonna go to shanghai on 14 june for a week
lets hope shanghai will be fun
i know i know
the fun would be a beijing (olympics), i know i know
but well i get to be nearrr there and soak in the fun
well abit will do hahaha...lol

bon voyage.

2008-04-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

who needs a heart when a heart can be broken.

some ppl depends on themselves heavily
some ppl spend the rest of their life depending on others
either way u still live
how is the defining word.

beee a mann , dooo the right things.

2008-04-18T01:32:00.004+08:00

Oh you're so vain,
Now your world is way too fast,
Nothing's real and nothing lasts,

Love and sex and loneliness,
Take what's yours and leave the rest,

Still in love with all your sins,
Where you stop and I begin,
Living like a house on fire,
What you fear is your desire

Now this angry little girl,
Drowning in this petty world,
Swallow all your bitter pills,
That's what makes you beautiful,
You're all or not,
I don't need what you ain't got.

2008-04-17T19:21:00.003+08:00

4b's
balls
booze
bitches
bike

5c's

c...
c.....
c....
c........ ....
c....

2008-04-17T17:57:00.001+08:00

Like a cat in a bag, waiting to drown.
This time I'm comin' down

And I hope you're thinking of me.
As you lay down on your side
Now the drugs don't work. They just make you worse
But I know I'll see your face again

But I know I'm on a losing streak,
'Cause I passed down my old street
And if you wanna show, then just let me know,
And I'll sing in your ear again

I'm never going down, I'm never coming down
No more, no more, no more, no more, no more

2008-04-17T16:34:00.003+08:00

pls dont judge me on the way i write.

im not sad.
bitter perhaps

And hocus pocus try to focus but I can't see
And in my mind I'ma blind man doin time
Look to my future cause my past, is all behind me
Is it a crime, to fight, for what is mine?
Everybody's dyin tell me what's the use of tryin
I've been Trapped since birth, cautious, cause I'm cursed
And fantasies of my family, in a hearse
And they say it's the white man I should fear
But, it's my own kind doin all the killin here
I can't lie, ain't no love for the other side
Jealousy inside, make em wish I died
Oh my Lord, tell me what I'm livin for
Everybody's droppin got me knockin on heaven's door
And all my memories, of seein brothers bleed
And everybody grieves, but still nobody sees
Recollect your thoughts don't get caught up in the mix
Cause the media is full of dirty tricks
Only God can judge me

Guess you figure you know me cause I'm a Thug
That love to hit the late night club, drink then buzz
Been livin lavish like a player all day
Now I'm bout to floss em off, player shit with 4-Tay
Only God can judge me- Tupac

im just trapped in my silence , rescue me.

2008-04-17T14:10:00.004+08:00

Good friends we have, oh, good friends we've lost
Along the way.
In this great future, you can't forget your past;
So dry your tears, I seh.

No, woman, no cry;
No, woman, no cry.
'Ere, little darlin', don't shed no tears:
No, woman, no cry.

Girls dont need boys ,
girls need cars and money.
period

wake up boy.

2008-04-16T16:58:00.001+08:00

Lighten up , its gonna brighten up
im gonna throw you a lifeline

tonight , dont dissapoint me , tonight

Hey sugar.
Cannery.

2008-04-16T01:17:00.006+08:00

Its like losing a limb but you still have ,
to carry on and rebuild your life.
To work with what you have
To be better with fewer
and not think of past glory days
But built better days forward

Pain is inevitable, but suffering is
optional.

Days to remind you that those former days was just
a shadow of who you are.
You are much better than that
and you were still weighing ur options

What you think is lesser
is compensated with what you've learn
Experience

and you became bigger actually
Lets piece back the puzzle

Did you think I'd crumble?
Did you think I'd lay down and die?
Oh not I,I will survive

Yeah
As Long as I know how to love,I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive

If there is a future there is time for mending
Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.

2008-04-15T23:07:00.001+08:00

These violent delights, have violent ends

Arise fair Sun & Kill the Envious Moon

2008-04-15T20:23:00.002+08:00

Damn im excited to meet dj tiesto world no1

and ferry corsten

me , khye and far are going to port dikson for a party

equivalent to zouk-out

http://www.freedom-08.net/

triggerly happy.

2008-04-14T19:01:00.001+08:00

pata pata patapon..

2008-04-14T18:31:00.002+08:00

Oh why oh why do you look so sad

Time grabs you by the wrist,
directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why

Why' there tears in your eyes when you smile ?
u see ,
bt u refuse to acknowlegde
u dont have the answers either
life is abt waiting sometimes,
actually in life u always got to wait

So take the photographs,
and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time

When i go out with you ,
you make me feel revive as if im living again.
that something that can make me forget

in life the young want to grow old ,
the old wanna be young
there can never be a fulfilment
never a satisfaction

For what it's worth it was worth all the while
I hope you had the time of your life.

The space for her to shine ,
room to roam
to trust me in you ,
you in me
rome wasnt built in a day

where do i begin?

2008-04-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

As the Reds Go Marching On! On! On!

Dedicated to the win
congrats btw , the title is yours

2008-04-13T20:45:00.008+08:00

http://www.iammygreatestenemy.com/

Why do we hurt one another in life?

When I'm in your arms I start believing
It's here to stay
but its only a feeling ;

a feeling that is , overwhelming it is

why is it there ,
in the first place
for us to be able to control
for us to savour whilst it last
for us to take in as memories
or there for us to suffer ?

logically i would say
its a phase given
to know ourself better.

be careful of what you wish for
if u wished for a rose the thorns would follow
its said love is a feeling frm heaven
the pain surely must come from hell

if there is an actual heaven or hell in the first place.
it is like melting ice

life suddenly became complicated
when i start thinking abt all this.
you left me high
somedays are easy , others are just harder
to close ur eyes and bid the day goodbye

It is too strong a feeling
i would be holding guns in a war and
looking at ppl blow their own kind heads off
stupid mindless , yes
rather than falling in love , im too scared for that.
and bcoz of this i may not be as good as some
Silence can cripple a big man.

and it all occured to me.

Europe trip
nowadays travellin has become a chic thing to do
oneday i hope i get to backpack across europe
for now lets be contented
goin to phuket and drink coconut
and to port dikson to dance to tiesto.

let music (or rather anything else in life)
be abt the passion
not fashion.

2008-04-13T16:58:00.001+08:00

With heart filled with righteous indignation,
I stand at the gallows and forcefully pen this poem with blood.
I want to air my grievances for a hundred years,
unable to tell all the wrongs with blood.
When will this gallows be destroyed to bring about a new heaven? - Tan Chay Wa (1948–1983)

2008-04-13T13:04:00.002+08:00

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?

this could be fate or random circumstance.
or did the universe conspire

sometimes finding sumone who you can talk to ,
is almost everything

look around
sense the soul of the surroundings
don’t close your heart
open up your mind
i need to find sumone to watch run fat boy run!!!

2008-04-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Accept what you can't change and
stop beating your head against the wall. Move on.

2008-04-09T18:37:00.003+08:00

my penpal wrote this

'it is really a shame that the mistakes
of humans overshadows everything else beautiful'

i forever wanted a penpal haha

in the evolution of human ,
we have forgot what matters the most
due to the complications that we've since created.

All of us , we want to be noticed
in our best..
sometime not necessarily appreciated
as appreciation normally comes with so much
other pre-requisite and also withdrawal symtons.
But if everyone is trying to get notice ,
who wants to notice.

also to mention i have withdrawn myself frm
wrking with the bank
although , its a gd paying job abt 20 per hour
but its not worth it
to see sad faces.

2008-04-08T18:32:00.002+08:00

Passion comes from the Latin word patior which means "to suffer or to endure"

CQ + PQ > IQ - thomas friedman formula
(curiousity quotient + passion quotient is greater than intellectual quotient)

2008-04-08T18:09:00.004+08:00

Just so you guys know.
Currently im working for a consortium of banks
doing house visits for those who have outstanding payments
from their credit cards or loans

damn its a sad job..to see the expression frm people faces
but somehows it reminds me on how to steer away from this
kind of problems.

what i can say is never owe bank money ,
the interest 'll kill you.

This is the irony the olympic torch relay is themed "Journey of Harmony",
its dividing more than its harmonising.

Coz Friday im in love..!

2008-04-07T22:20:00.003+08:00

With passion comes desire.

While playing chess , which has become my daily addiction ,
on the train
while also blasting some random song from my ipod
it prolly was get low...
(who isnt listening to that song at the moment)

i saw this on sumone t-shirt ,
i stopped and stared at that sumones t-shirt

'Do not cry because its over , smile because it happened'
It fucking happened.

one day i shall be the chessmaster of the world
ok maybe singapore
okok tampines.=(

where was my bike?
im tired of riding.

yay we are so gonna hit phuket.
(lets change it to ko samui pls!)
woo phukeetttttteett(or ko samui!!!!)
attason-a-singpol , natarawut , surachai jatamani
hahaha random thai names
i'll be coming!!!
one good thing abt achohol is that
its never dissapoints

Don't count the days, make the days count
- Muhammad Ali

2008-04-06T21:12:00.002+08:00

Livewire

I feel the gout;
I keep thinking of a way out:
A welcome pleasant memory of a path
Leading me to solace and un-wrath.

Desperate to succeed,
Emotionally an unplanted seed
Having only one creed,
Fleeing the captivity of a trance-like mild catatonic stupor,
Conscientiously accepting such deplorable and unhealthy life choices,
I blunder awkwardly and reluctantly as if this is my only course.
The power of change
Lies in determination and self-will;
Courage and self-assurance lie in the heart and soul.
Why can't I take control?
Almost a hypnotic state
With utmost grace I relate:
This existence must begin to create
A change in thoughts and feelings

We need to be in control of ourselves
sometime its just that
you're too unique that you dont know
what is normal to others

keep still in case you are not sure abt the current

We all live but its how we die that matters
thats what i think

Everybody says that their looking for a shelter,
Got a lot to give but I don't know how to help her,
I should just let it go till they learn how to grow,
And how to liberate.
Silence is easy, it just becomes me,
You don't even know me, all lie about me.

Everybody says that I'm looking for a home now,
Looking for a boy or I'm looking for a girl now,
I can still let it go, I can still learn to grow,
Into a child again.

Lets hope i'll be boarding a flight to phuket ,
this coming june

2008-04-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

Rain, rain, go away
Come again some other day
We want to go outside and play
Come again some other day

2008-04-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

in all of us there lie a devil
in order to kill him ,
we need to starve him of desires
we must not feed him for it only would make him grow stronger
and of course being the devil greedier

you may make friends with him
if you tame him , it'll actually work your way
but be careful , the devil
aint a pet to play =)

If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way

Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But, above all this, I wish you love

And I will always love you

i think im too determined for my own good
while working jst nw i realise i rarely give up
that is bad , its like it will hinder me frm moving on
to find whats better
for there will always be better thing down the road
no matter what.
so hans give up more often will you'

Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge,
And unbearable pity for the suffering of [humankind].

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of [people].
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living

by Bertrand Russell

2008-03-27T13:30:00.000+08:00

Alas , It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.

Cinderella said this
Do you love me because I am beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?
ahhaha cinderella so cute...

2008-03-25T19:06:00.002+08:00

I swear i hate headaches
but its a good excuse to sit at hm , laze arnd maybe watch some dvds
not that bad aftall aye

i seriously think all humans are born to love
but a single(or more than one) occurence in life lead to us thinking otherwise

recently i got an obsession with the radio channel lush 99.5
a non mainstream channel became mainstream to my ears
so yea i've gotten a psp and his name is spongey ,
only one person would know the significance of the name
haha well she wudnt even care anyway.

im gonna get meself a vespa soon say three months

Yet still lovely is the flower
Despite the thorns that prick
Just as life and love are sweet
They too have thorns that stick.
But do not fear to live or love,
Life's not exempt from pain -
So pick a rose, you may get hurt,
But you will also gain!

Days and nights go by
a lonely life
just won't go byI can't say a word to you
even if I wish to.....what anguish do I suffer.....

It's fitting
That I should go
To a placeI know well.

2008-03-18T13:41:00.001+08:00

LEMON TREE

I'm sitting here in a boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time, I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens -- and I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast, I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens, and I wonder

I wonder how, I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation -- I don't want to sit on a lemon tree
I'm stepping around in a dessert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen -- and you'll wonder

2008-03-17T23:53:00.001+08:00

you're bought the tickets
to the front seat
of the demise of future
u watch helplessly an the mystery unravelled
the show is you destroying ur future
unfolding in front of you
u just got to move on
and build another future
another dream
ooo baby pls dont go
pls dont go.

I don't know where you came from,
i don't know where you have disappeared,
It all happened so fast,then why do the memories last.
Gone are those peaceful nights, in came all the painful fights,
My heart is now like a fish
trapped inside a net,it has got only one wish,
that u don't forget.

With all those sleeping pills,i now put myself to rest
Someday u will realize that
My love was always the best

2008-03-17T23:28:00.002+08:00

A boy was asked to hold a spoon
which is filled with water
and travel across the the span of a room

This boy ,
he held if carefully mindind his step
he paid full attention , putting his focus on the spoon
and disregarding his surroundings

At the end of the walk
there was a man
who asked the boy ,
what did he learned and what did he see?
so did you saw what was around the room

the boy didnt know it was ok to fall
it was ok to fail , it is part of the journey
falling is part of the joy
the boy left the room not knowing anything
he thought the prize was at the end of the journey
actually the prize of the journey is the journey itself

enjoy ur journey guys
take a look arnd dont waste the journey!

Where was I going
I couldn't rightly say
So I carried a candle to light my way
My light wasn't all that bright
but perhaps its brighter than
where I was
Living a life, with empty
Love

I've found my journey
took me through valleys deep
several times I've stilled my feet
Fear of the unknown
bound me once or twice
but the promise
of a brighter tomorrow
drew me on

Through forest black and deep
so dense
I couldn't see for all the tree's
I, even in fear
moved on
remembering a dream of early on

A mountain top I stood
looking at a world I understood
a life that placed no blame
and expected no daily pain
No drink, No drugs,
No more empty promises
Just a simple promise of
mostly happy tomorrows

Rivers, swift and deep
boulders here and there
meant for nothing but to block my way
I paddled across
sinking often
thinking at times to just give up and sink
but then my small light shined through
and I went on my way

I continued on with my life
life and true love
I hoped to find
someone that cared
that Loved
to share in this life of mine

So now here I sit
journey not quite finished yet
But I can see past yesterdays sorrows
and
I anticipate all the beautiful tomorrows

2008-03-11T02:33:00.001+08:00

if i were to get into an accident an die
forgive me of my past mistakes
and come to my funeral.

i hope the people i love would come.

2008-03-08T23:39:00.000+08:00

Take my hand ,
Take my whole life too.

2008-03-07T00:29:00.002+08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say

The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleepThinking:
"Why does this happen to me?Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Its not over tonight

2008-03-05T13:10:00.003+08:00

After numerous attempts with the opposite sex ,
we have gotten tired and bored
so we have now shift to a new phase
a psp and motorbike phase ahaha
achoholics anonymous ,

im hans and im a psp addict.
so now anyone with any shit on psp kindly
kindly share , hopefully u'll go to heaven for it
if there is one.
if not i can share with you my powderful games thank you
ps : pls share ur games with me =(

2008-02-29T02:25:00.002+08:00

Because I'll never let this go
But I can't find the words to tell you
I don't want to be alone

But now I feel like I don't know you
One day you'll get sick of
saying that everything's alright
And by then I'm sure I'll be pretending
Just like I am tonight

Forget me not'
either the bike i posted before or this bike
yzf r-125

pls comment thanks.either this or madass ...i prefer madass

2008-02-29T01:44:00.002+08:00

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."

It is when you stop going along with the crowd

and start realizing that there are many things
about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder

where you will be in a year or two, but
then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish

and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to

aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met,

and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.

What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too,

and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere,

but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought
you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing
that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares
you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger.

You see what others are doing and find yourself

judging more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are
constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what
isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused.

Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try
and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the
past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to
do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do
such damage to you.

Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why
you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and
talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem
to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be
great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to
it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as
hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

2008-02-29T00:58:00.003+08:00

This time
you burn me with you eyes

Beauty is ever to the lonely mind
A shadow fleeting; she is never plain.
She is a visitor who leaves behind
The gift of grief, the souvenir of pain."

"When you have only two pennies left in the world, buy a loaf of bread with one, and a lily with the other." ~ Chinese proverb

one to feed ur hunger , the other to feed ur heart

2008-02-29T00:31:00.002+08:00

i need to clear the mess i've created

i a soldier
a soldier of fortune

I have often told you stories
About the way
I lived the life of a drifter
Waiting for the day
When I'd take your hand
And sing you songs
Then maybe you would say
Come lay with me love me
And I would surely stay

But I feel I'm growing older
And the songs that I have sung
Echo in the distance
Like the sound
Of a windmill goin' 'round
I guess I'll always be
A soldier of fortune

Many times I've been a traveller
I looked for something new
In days of old
When nights were cold
I wandered without you
But those days I thougt my eyes
Had seen you standing near
Though blindness is confusing
It shows that you're not here

2008-02-28T23:12:00.003+08:00

I shy from the world ,
silence definitely my solace
at least in the silence
i can take comfort in the fact
that i wont cause any harm.

i accepted it aint magical
i accepted it aint a bed or roses
i accepted you got to work hard
but if i accepted it all
will you give me back what i was given?
fate decides

my life is put on a hold.
i dont blame the way it was paved
i dont expect anything
sometimes i want to shout but words dont come out even.
like you'll prolly laugh

;i never took the time to look at you
to notice how high you could fly
it made me now
just but a mistake of my past
i listen to music
it is a beautiful escape
what is life w/o music?;

i runned , i hided , i covered
i pretended
damage is done.
nevertheless

forever love , forever dream
maybe im just wasting my time

i shalt buy a new bike
its call sachs madass
sachs being the brand
a german brand
madass being the name of the bike

a madass riding a madass , pun definitely intended.
i think im getting the black one

2008-02-28T21:50:00.000+08:00

Are you not listening, my Love
I am singing......
from the music of raindrops falling on the grass
from the soft sound of buds blossoming into flowers
from the murmur of darkness embracing our love
and the soft sound of light enveloping us
And from the last dance of the falling leaves..... - prasana kumari

2008-02-28T21:22:00.002+08:00

By the minute im going crazy ,

if i ever get crazy and u guys are reviewing my blog

A powerful wizard, who wanted to destroy an entire kingdom, placed a magic potion in a well from which all the inhabitants drank. Whoever drank that water would go mad.

The following morning, the whole population drank from the well and they all went mad, apart from the kind and his family, who had a well set aside for them alone, and which the magican had not managed to poison. The king was worried and tried to control the population by issuing a series of edicts governing security and public health. The policemen and the inspectors, however, had also drunk the poisoned water and they thought the king's decisions were absurd and resolved to take no notice of them.

When the inhabitants of the kingdom heard these decrees they became convinced that the king had gone mad and was now giving nonsensical orders. They marched on the castle and called for his abdication. In despair, the king prepared to step down from the throne, but the queen stopped him, saying "Let us drink from the communal well. Then, we will be the same as them. And that was what they did: the king, and the queen drank the water of madness and immediately began talking nonsense. Their subjects repented at once; now that the king was displaying such wisdom, why not allow him to continue ruling the country?

The country continued to live in peace, although its inhabitants behaved very differently from those of its neighbours. And the king was able to govern until the end of his - frm a friends blog

2008-02-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

Do you believe in god
do you believe in family
do you believe in friendship
do you believe in humanity
do you believe in love
do you believe in destiny

i believe in not

2008-02-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

I , myself , am my own greatest enemy
But in times of need i am my only sole friend left.

We break our promises.
Love we said.

Love is a raw emotion
that is to be left uncooked.
Piece me back together
if you would

sick and tired
sick and tired
sick and tired

How do you get over something you never want to forget?

2008-02-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

im a flower that has not bloomed

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.

everyone needs an escape , we find it in different places.

All of it was just an illusion of perfection , reality is now

2008-02-05T16:45:00.000+08:00

Tonight its very clear
As were both lying here

"Jeremiah was dealt his hand
Went off to another land this evening
For to find some inner peace
And to see a better way of living"

Fate , Time , Life
certainly has a great sense of humour
i would say.

Be ready to lose what you earn.
Empty your heart of empty fears.
Faith is not only in believing others
but its also to believe in yourself
But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger,
Do you have to let it linger?

Many moons have past
Since I have held you last

Even though you locked up
That doesn't mean imma give up

When you're close to tears remember
someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
what's ahead is a different color

At the end of the day
we remember the way
we stayed so close to the end
we'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
Cause even the impossible
is easy when we got each other - high by lighthouse family

Hopefully it'll last forever
no matter how bad the weather

2008-02-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

In the event of my Demise
when my heart can beat no more
I Hope I Die For A Principle
or A Belief that I had Lived 4
I will die Before My Time
Because I feel the shadow's Depth
so much I wanted 2 accomplish
before I reached my Death
I have come 2 grips with the possibility
and wiped the last tear from My eyes
I Loved All who were Positive
In the event of my Demise

- a poem by tupac'

In the event of your demise
ur words , ur music , ur culture
still lives

2008-02-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

I know this corner of the earth it smiles at me

So inspired of that there's nothing left to do or say

Think I'll dream, 'til the stars shine - jamiroquai

Just as every cop is a criminal

And all the sinners saints

As heads is tails

2008-02-02T21:06:00.000+08:00

What if you'd seen your mate before
Something like the korean movie turn left , turn right
and whisk off pass each other like due to a wrong move
and the whisk off the chance to know each other ,
time waits for no one so if you think its worth it
like what and how you always think it should be
grab the moment by the guts and make it yours.
Bacause chances and oppurtunities dont meet you often
Im saying this.

Live for what you trust
Trust what you love
Love the way you live

Live , Trust , Love

LIVE
Too good to be true lyrics
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
So if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
I need you baby to warm the lonely nights

Romance is a must for most young hearts
Gestures of love broken in tiny parts
A dozen roses, a chocolate heart,
Writing a poem with all your heart,
A cute little card with x's and o's
Sittin’ by the fire warming your toes
A candle lit dinner down by the beach
You both come in a pair not in a peach
Long conversations late into the night
Love is there and romance is in sight
Just a bear hug for you just like this
Romance is even just the right kiss…

Wake up sunshine
this is your day

Trust

Metaphorically speaking
A flower would only blossom
under the presence of a compilation of light , food , water
You need to give it time to grow,
u need to believe in it, that it will grow
You cant give it too much food , it'll die that way too
so more is not always good
too much of smthing is never too good
you can get diabetes for being too sweet
A relationship will crumble into dust
For any loving couple without trust

The truth is a mysterious thing,
is it the thing that makes the birds sing?
if I were told the truth would it keep me alive?
or would I be better of believing a lie

Love
The dead can dance
Easier than one can
Resurrect a dead romance
Or understand the existence of man.

Even death, leaving a void.
Loves Paid heavily for and dear
Carried over from the last calendar year
Blur my vision
Mother
For the nth time
I trust, risk betrayal
Juggle false and true.
If I fail, gather me unto you

im not sad
i just wish things could be better
i hope its better than better

Lets just say alot of weird things happen on friday
its was seriously freaky friday all over again
but i like friday
t.g.i.f. haha , cliche

My medical check up on friday was weird ,
The aunty at prima deli was weird she gave me extra topping for my waffles
i asked for peanut butter , she say chocolate plus peanut butter very nice ahahaa
my sister is weird , she wants to buy a catbed for the "cat"
While waiting at tampines intc it was weird too ,this man had fits , he felled to the floor
and flew into a rage , i and another man had to give him support
calling 995 for the first time feels weird
everybody stop and looked at him
luckily he did not die on me
i dont want anyone dying on me
pls dont die on me , i want to give hope
the weather was weird , i had a picnic in the rain
the time of the picnic was weird nevertheless fun
the birds were weird , they ate honeystars wth?
and lastly I was weird . ahahahaha

i got lost at jb on saturday i keep gettin lost haha
How now brow cow?

2008-01-31T14:04:00.000+08:00

I Should Tell You I'm Disaster
I Forget How To Begin It
I'd Forgotten How to Smile
Until Your Candle Burned My Skin

Who Knows Where
Who Goes There
Who Knows Here Goes
Trusting Desire - Starting To Learn
Walking Through Fire Without A Burn Clinging - A Shoulder,
A Leap Begins Stinging And Older, Asleep On Pins

Who Knows Where - Who Goes There
Here Goes - Here Goes
Lets venture into the unknown
and see whats left for us there

A musical frm the movie rent
I dint even watch the movie
Im living it.

A flower fighting with all its might,
Against the wind thats pushing past

This is the secret of love and heartbreak,
you have to move on,
you have to submit to fate.

You sit on the bed alone
Naked in your innocence
A tear slowly flows over your face
And stops on the tip of your chin
Nobody comes to wipe it away
Nobody is there
Untill you wait for
The replacement for your hatred

She who sees the best in me'

2008-01-30T14:01:00.000+08:00

It was like a movie
not a fantastic action packed movie but a feel good movie
smthing like wedding singer my fav movie

If i could stop time then i would
It seems like riding to space.
and the ride to space wasnt alone.

anyway updates on the cat
my dad and him became the bestest of friend ahahah
at night before i sleep he'll come up to me and tell me his problems..
i'll listen to him , he make me feel impt
ouh yea he's a boy btw a pretty boy
i think tts cool , i like you cat

haha yesterday i got lost while riding at chua chu kang cemetery yes u read tt right
hahaha and i had to lunge a 7kg bag while riding but it was all good.hahaha

Beauty is temporary
so if the basis of your relationship is beauty
nevertheless it could grow
but the foundation was shallow to start with

To build a good building
You need hard rock steel coupled with cements
and cement , stones take a longer time to build
because unlike sponge with a lot space inside
Steel has a tight boding with its atoms
so take ur time , build ur rocks
So perhaps eventually you can live in your building graciously'

2008-01-29T13:44:00.000+08:00

Time is like a grenade
it can be use to be of assistance
but it also could be use as a weapon that would act against you ; time

Translation of a song that was stuck in my head
it is sung and written by two bands collaborating from indo and aust

Tonight let's just say im alone
no one is accompanying me
just like those other night
that had past before me

This heart is always alone
none is decorating it
just like this love
that always seems to be gone

god kindly sent me sumone
a lover that is kind hearted
that will love me
for what i am

This flower seems to be dying out
no one is tending for it
its just like me in a way
being , faded out

2008-01-28T13:55:00.000+08:00

I lead many lifes ,
I wear many clothes
I get confuse on who i am sometimes
sometimes they're in conflict with each other
ppl/society expect me to be different in order to adapt to them constraints
that i forget who i was before
and after spending time to revert back
i got to adapt again.
its getting tiring.

The cat waited for me the whole night
outside at the place he first saw me ,
romantic aye you
you are quite a sap
it wanted to follow me to sch.hahhahaha
imagine a cat taking mmy bike with me ahahah lol

Days after days
challenges after challenges
like every few days something new will come and suprise you

You must have the discipline,
To stop temptation of sin;
And maintaining self-control,
For purity in your soul.

like it never stops
day after day
I just cant help but laugh in this face of adversity
like haha good one agaisnt me
let me see how i will try to counter it this time
like a game
hahaha

it take discipline to overcome challenges!
So just do what you should , when should and
dont forget be cool!

in this age the player arent us guys
The true players are girls
they are playing you guys out
take care guys!

Ppl always say i want to conquer the world
Irony is i want to liberate it.
i found the song that has been in my head from the jakarta trip
ok this is good.

2008-01-28T00:34:00.000+08:00

Today a man died like any other day
But this man, he's a father
a father of development for his country
i did not like him personally when i was young
but today to anyone who reads this
i hope you may be able to forgive him for the wrongdoings
politics is never clean , it may seem clean here
but the absence of mess doesnt mean thre wasnt dirt
he have done , you may have forgotten he's human too
and to err is definitely human
some of us get away by making small mistakes
some of us are not that fortunate

Twisted love is still love but just that its twisted

To be accepted doesnt mean you are right
Just like when you're right, doesnt mean you're accepted.

When you have a dream or an idea
protect it
just like when you have a love
protect it

Ive made many mistakes in life
i hope someday ppl can forgive me for the mistakes i've made
I've made many girls cry ,
but remember i've made many girls smile too

I leave a trail
a trail of heartbreaks.

there was a cat who followed me home
i gave him food , it likes chicken alot
it was a very good looking kitten , pretty i might add
snowy fur .. obedient , it listens
i want to care for him but i cant
i love him though
he really listens when i talk.
With kind eyes , you kinda make me feel impt
like my mission is to care for you in this world
But we know better that our time here is short
and what we have is momentarily
and all we could do is remember the moment
maybe think about it when its gone
If you may , forget me not

You can bring me down but for how
long can you keep me down?

2008-01-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

Nice arms bru'

Waiting patiently isn’t an option now
As sweat drips down my once dry brow
Its taking longer than the last one
Wondering where the time has gone

Even though i try to pretend

But be careful, dear dreamer, for if you should roam
Across the dream border, you can never come home
Into dreams you have gone and in dreams you must stay
Doomed to dreaming forever, till your dying day

words words words words ...!! argh
i want to stop thinking!
its becoming my achilles heel

2008-01-25T19:10:00.000+08:00

I went to my future on two accounts
like two different scenarios
and two different me's
due to the paths i've took
or rather going to take ,
i look the same though in both

woooo...it was scary..
both seems fun ,
but somehow in different ways it seem empty like
what i had in A wasnt in B and vice versa
well somethings gotta give
'cause i try and i try and i try and i try
And I can't get no satisfaction - rolling stones

i should stop going to the future.
its scary.but i had a mercs on both scenarios
something to look forward too , a black convertible mercs

The clock's run out, time's up over, blouww!
Snap back to reality, Oh there goes gravity
You better lose yourself in the music, the moment
You own it, you better never let it go
You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo

At the rate im going i can write a book balls and prolly get meself a black mercs
oooo so thats how i bought the mercs in the first place
i need an pretty(woman) editor , a teacher and a whole lot of coffee
The teacher is to teach me how to edit and how to make nice coffee ,
i edit my work myself.
the editor , nah thats just for company .

2008-01-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

Two shall be born, the whole wide world apart,
That, one day, out of darkness they shall meet
And read life's meaning in each other's eyes.

And the two shall walk some narrow way of life
So nearly side by side that, should one turn
Ever so little space to left or right,
They needs must stand acknowledged,
face to face.And, yet, with wistful eyes that never meet
And groping hands that never clasp and lips
Calling in vain to ears that never hear,
They seek each other all their weary days
And die unsatisfied - and this is Fate!

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Your at the world's command,
Your standing there alone,
Time to make a stand,
Your as strong as stone.

2008-01-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

Your body's a temple.
That's why you abuse it, punish it.
That's why you sacrifice it...

Push it to the limit with every crushing lift.
Lifting is an all out war.
This is how you train.
But being an Animal is more than just training.
It's the way you live.
It's an in-your-face attitude few can even comprehend.
This is a life devoted to iron

Look, it's not about fancy gym equipment or gear.
Your training is hardcore, no-frills.
You make a statement by the way you train, not by what you wear.

i want to be gay cause i want to stop liking girls
but i dont want to fuck guys haha
i like iron and sunshines.

2008-01-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

Somebody wrote this for me once upon a time

I wont talk
I wont breathe
I wont move till you finally see
That you belong with me

You might think I dont look
But deep inside
In the corner of my mind
Im attached to you

Im weak
Its true
Cuz im afraid to know the awnsers
Do you want me too?
Cuz my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life
To cross this line
To the only thing thats true

So I will not hide
Its time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You dont know what you do

Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
Its time to try anything to be with you

All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go ill be on my way to you
The way thats true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hideIts time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true

ITs not true afterall yea

2008-01-23T15:12:00.000+08:00

An ancient chinese poem

Keep away from sharp swords
Don't go near a lovely woman.
A sharp sword too close will wound your hand;
Woman's beauty too close will wound your life!

The danger of the road is not in the distance;
Ten yards is far enough to break a wheel.
The peril of love is not in loving too often;
A single evening can leave its wound in the soul.

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done

I swam across I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
I drew a line I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
look how they shine look at the stars
look how they shine for you

blue

2008-01-23T01:57:00.001+08:00

egret egret burning bright in the sky
Originally uploaded by AnnuskA Hjärta - AnnA Theodora

Drink from this heart now,
for all this loving it contains.
When you look for it again,
it will be dancing in the wind.

The other night dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamed I held you in my arms,
but when I woke dear, I was mistaken,
and I hung my head and cried.
Please don't take my sunshine away.