Monday, December 31, 2007
happy new year readers.
to a bright new year cheers
this year resolution is to not be too sensitive
and to hopefully be a better man
and to find what is suppose to be founded
and to shed what is suppose to be.
wake up to a better year
@ 11:40 PM
to a bright new year cheers
this year resolution is to not be too sensitive
and to hopefully be a better man
and to find what is suppose to be founded
and to shed what is suppose to be.
wake up to a better year
@ 11:40 PM
What if you just needed sumone to talk to before you tuck in to sleep at night?
i'll play your game and believe all your lies
then reveal in the end it was just a disguise
i'll give you a taste of the pain that you spread
in honor of all the hearts you had tread
can you feel my anger , yes i have been burned
and through it all , of this much i learned
i can spott your kind in heartbeat and flash
and hearts unfamilliar , their reaction is a rash
but come to me now , i challenge your plight
i promise this much , you wont want to fight
i'll show you such passion like you've never seen
desire so perfect , you'll make me your queen
then once i've accomplished my point to be made
the falsity of love , this lie then will then fade
and you will be left with pain that is real
think again , mr player , of broken hearts that you deal
you cant find sumone therefore u blog.
no one has a right to play god and exert revenge on sumone
things happens for a reason
@ 3:01 AM
i'll play your game and believe all your lies
then reveal in the end it was just a disguise
i'll give you a taste of the pain that you spread
in honor of all the hearts you had tread
can you feel my anger , yes i have been burned
and through it all , of this much i learned
i can spott your kind in heartbeat and flash
and hearts unfamilliar , their reaction is a rash
but come to me now , i challenge your plight
i promise this much , you wont want to fight
i'll show you such passion like you've never seen
desire so perfect , you'll make me your queen
then once i've accomplished my point to be made
the falsity of love , this lie then will then fade
and you will be left with pain that is real
think again , mr player , of broken hearts that you deal
you cant find sumone therefore u blog.
no one has a right to play god and exert revenge on sumone
things happens for a reason
@ 3:01 AM
Sunday, December 30, 2007
What if you tried so hard to forget somebody
you try so very hard
you make urself hate that person
using anger as a tool
so you try lookin into their flaws to make you hate them even more
but you end up understanding the flaws and actually learn to appreciate the flaw that they have and it became a tool for you to understand them better
and it makes you liking them even more in solace
so what do you do?
the questions is she worth it?
well mine definitely is
but wait is she still mine
errr or is she still she? in the first place
god not more questions
questions answering questions open up space for more answers
in the search for the answers you try to talk to that person
but you cant ...
coz you simply know that it is wrong to do so
how long can one last in a cage?
how long can one bear to eat his own heart
A tiger can change what is in his nature due to love
so can we man too.
its in our nature to polygate
what if , given the option of all the girls in the world
you still wont budge and not trade it for that one joy
would people of the world look down on me?
would you look at me as if im fighting a lost cause
would you exploit me?
would you think im weak
i can tell you im not
i just dont want nobody to hurt you
Wish i could forget , still i remember
shes not fading , she keeps on linger
I run , I hide like a hunted criminal
Then i wait , I long for her arrival
@ 8:25 PM
you try so very hard
you make urself hate that person
using anger as a tool
so you try lookin into their flaws to make you hate them even more
but you end up understanding the flaws and actually learn to appreciate the flaw that they have and it became a tool for you to understand them better
and it makes you liking them even more in solace
so what do you do?
the questions is she worth it?
well mine definitely is
but wait is she still mine
errr or is she still she? in the first place
god not more questions
questions answering questions open up space for more answers
in the search for the answers you try to talk to that person
but you cant ...
coz you simply know that it is wrong to do so
how long can one last in a cage?
how long can one bear to eat his own heart
A tiger can change what is in his nature due to love
so can we man too.
its in our nature to polygate
what if , given the option of all the girls in the world
you still wont budge and not trade it for that one joy
would people of the world look down on me?
would you look at me as if im fighting a lost cause
would you exploit me?
would you think im weak
i can tell you im not
i just dont want nobody to hurt you
Wish i could forget , still i remember
shes not fading , she keeps on linger
I run , I hide like a hunted criminal
Then i wait , I long for her arrival
@ 8:25 PM
Saturday, December 29, 2007
I don't fight for the politics
I don't fight for the moral rights
I don't fight for the flag of stars and stripes
I fight for the arms which welcome me home
I don't fight for the rebels
I don't fight for the survivors
I don't fight for myself
I fight for the safety of my sons, and his sons after him
I don't care about the pain
I don't sense the danger
I only feel the heat of what I do
pouring through my soul in meaning
I hear the call of my death sing
but nothing can blunt my heart
my strength may fail but my courage will not
If I cant fight for one person in this world
Then I fight for nothing
@ 11:41 PM
I don't fight for the moral rights
I don't fight for the flag of stars and stripes
I fight for the arms which welcome me home
I don't fight for the rebels
I don't fight for the survivors
I don't fight for myself
I fight for the safety of my sons, and his sons after him
I don't care about the pain
I don't sense the danger
I only feel the heat of what I do
pouring through my soul in meaning
I hear the call of my death sing
but nothing can blunt my heart
my strength may fail but my courage will not
If I cant fight for one person in this world
Then I fight for nothing
@ 11:41 PM
Peter Pan - Mungkin Nanti translation to English
Maybe later
The moment I said this will be the last time,
I've already given up hope that it is,
Maybe it's just that you're not the same person,
Maybe it's just that the feelings are gone.
And maybe one day when we meet again,
My one request is that you don't ask for,
The feelings that I left for dead,
Like the yesterday, the memories come flooding back
And when your wandering heart wakes from your dreams,
Open your heart from before that shared stories with me,
Maybe its just that you're not the same person,
Maybe it's just that the feelings are gone
So one day, if we ever meet again,
My one request is that you don't ask for,
The feelings I left for dead,
Just like yesterday, the memories come back
There is no use in you asking to keep it for yourself,
All the regrets you are looking for I've already given to you
@ 11:23 PM
Maybe later
The moment I said this will be the last time,
I've already given up hope that it is,
Maybe it's just that you're not the same person,
Maybe it's just that the feelings are gone.
And maybe one day when we meet again,
My one request is that you don't ask for,
The feelings that I left for dead,
Like the yesterday, the memories come flooding back
And when your wandering heart wakes from your dreams,
Open your heart from before that shared stories with me,
Maybe its just that you're not the same person,
Maybe it's just that the feelings are gone
So one day, if we ever meet again,
My one request is that you don't ask for,
The feelings I left for dead,
Just like yesterday, the memories come back
There is no use in you asking to keep it for yourself,
All the regrets you are looking for I've already given to you
@ 11:23 PM
To refrain from all evil,
to do what is good,
to purify the mind
Beauty in the eyes would be gone once you close your eyes ,
beauty in the soul , try closing ur soul.
morning to night
to what heaven is to hell
distance apart
they are never gonna meet
always there missing each other merely by a step
i was just tryin to start to feel
i'll wait in my suit of steel
hope u'll write and it'll get to me
break away frm the camouflage
its not that apparent
when everybody is shading the same skin
hey babe , is that you i see?
@ 10:51 PM
to do what is good,
to purify the mind
Beauty in the eyes would be gone once you close your eyes ,
beauty in the soul , try closing ur soul.
morning to night
to what heaven is to hell
distance apart
they are never gonna meet
always there missing each other merely by a step
i was just tryin to start to feel
i'll wait in my suit of steel
hope u'll write and it'll get to me
break away frm the camouflage
its not that apparent
when everybody is shading the same skin
hey babe , is that you i see?
@ 10:51 PM
"Oh, why you look so sad? Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you."
Hush, little baby, don't say a word.
Im gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Im gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass,
You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town
@ 10:44 PM
Come on and come to me now.
Don't be ashamed to cry, let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
So, if you're mad get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
And hey, what you got to hide? I get angry too
But I'm alot like you.
When you're standing at the crossroads, don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, cause even if your wrong
I'll stand by you, I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Take me into your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you.
I'll stand by you."
Hush, little baby, don't say a word.
Im gonna buy you a mockingbird
And if that mockingbird won't sing,
Im gonna buy you a diamond ring
And if that diamond ring turns brass,
You'll still be the sweetest little baby in town
@ 10:44 PM
I miss those days and I miss those ways
When I got lost in fantasies
In a cartoon land of mysteries
In a place you won’t grow old in a place you won’t feel cold and I’ll sing
Now I understand Now I know
Older and wiser
I understand with pain in my stomach
The suffering of a child
I have lived to learn how unforgivable it is
to Standby while they die
A life like box in my living room tells me stories
Of babies who have no more tears to cry
Their blank stares begging for nothing
Their frail bodies exposed to us as evidence
As humanity sits by helpless, I Cry
What do I do while they die?
Am I an unwitting participant in this Me game?
Or worse, is it knowingly?
Am I forgiven because I cry?
Or do I close the light at night and know that
absolution will never be gifted to the human race
until we take each others hands as one people
united in our common goal,
making decisions advocating compassion,
above Everything
How do we find our way
While they die
Am I getting wiser or just older?
My heart aches for the children
So I try to help one
But it’s not enough for me
We need leaders who will choose to save the children
We need countries caring about their suffering people
But it is easier to build weapons
Hold my hand while we cry
And the children die
@ 10:27 PM
When I got lost in fantasies
In a cartoon land of mysteries
In a place you won’t grow old in a place you won’t feel cold and I’ll sing
Now I understand Now I know
Older and wiser
I understand with pain in my stomach
The suffering of a child
I have lived to learn how unforgivable it is
to Standby while they die
A life like box in my living room tells me stories
Of babies who have no more tears to cry
Their blank stares begging for nothing
Their frail bodies exposed to us as evidence
As humanity sits by helpless, I Cry
What do I do while they die?
Am I an unwitting participant in this Me game?
Or worse, is it knowingly?
Am I forgiven because I cry?
Or do I close the light at night and know that
absolution will never be gifted to the human race
until we take each others hands as one people
united in our common goal,
making decisions advocating compassion,
above Everything
How do we find our way
While they die
Am I getting wiser or just older?
My heart aches for the children
So I try to help one
But it’s not enough for me
We need leaders who will choose to save the children
We need countries caring about their suffering people
But it is easier to build weapons
Hold my hand while we cry
And the children die
@ 10:27 PM
I still want you by my side
just to help me dry the tears that i've cried
and i'm sure gonna give you a try
if you want i'll try to love again, (try)
baby, i'll try to love again, but i know
the first cut is the deepest
@ 10:22 PM
just to help me dry the tears that i've cried
and i'm sure gonna give you a try
if you want i'll try to love again, (try)
baby, i'll try to love again, but i know
the first cut is the deepest
@ 10:22 PM
lunch at indo
we're headin to the mountains
the view frm there lovely aye
thats my head haha
there was a concert at the theme park
the sunset
theres a story bout this monkeyi met this brave singaporean girl there interesting...real interesting
@ 9:46 PM
We may not speak
we may not meet
but we know it could
be more than what it is
Beauty is one thing
intelligence is another
together , now thats something
let's just say i find you quite interesting
very if i might add to this
your innocence , i think
or what it is
that made me run for it
or maybe its just me
needing a person to love to make me feel easy
till fate let us be
@ 9:38 PM
we may not meet
but we know it could
be more than what it is
Beauty is one thing
intelligence is another
together , now thats something
let's just say i find you quite interesting
very if i might add to this
your innocence , i think
or what it is
that made me run for it
or maybe its just me
needing a person to love to make me feel easy
till fate let us be
@ 9:38 PM
my flight is pr 503 wee
the bags , mine is the one with the brown shaul
at indo airport
i've got a new shade of colour vous
at singapore airporti went jakarta for a short trip 5 days to be exact
and i got to celebrate christmas there
to sum it up it was inspirational , a lot of shopping , heartwarming and captivating
i'll definitely go back and maybe next time with a better purpose
lets just talk with pictures
@ 9:29 PM
The mark of the loser,
Scars come to sight.
The mark upon my brow,
Marks another time to fight.
The dread of the image,
Brands itself on my brow.
The mark of the loser,
No hope for me now...
Mark of failure, the sign of destiny,
No last glimpse of happiness when the flaw is all I see.
The dream leaves for a while,
It’s sad when you see.
For a year all your fears,
Torment ceaselessly,
Another sigh of the times.
The scar upon your brow,
The mark of the loser,
No help for you now...
So hans , Its fight or flight
@ 9:25 PM
pictures of food frm my aunt's bday as promised =)
@ 9:23 PM
Friday, December 21, 2007
“There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness.” - Nietzsche
@ 11:46 PM
@ 11:46 PM
Ah Love! could thou and I with Fate conspire
To grasp this sorry Scheme of Things entire,
Would not we shatter it to bits -- and then
Re-mould it nearer to the Heart's Desire! - khayyam
@ 2:24 PM
To grasp this sorry Scheme of Things entire,
Would not we shatter it to bits -- and then
Re-mould it nearer to the Heart's Desire! - khayyam
@ 2:24 PM
"You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist.”
The Four Candles burned slowly.
Their ambiance was so soft you could hear them speak...
The first candle said, "I Am Peace, but these days, nobody wants to keep me lit."
Then Peace's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
The second candle said, "I Am Faith, but these days, I am no longer indispensable."
Then Faith's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
Sadly the third candle spoke, "I Am Love and I haven't the strength to stay lit any longer."
"People put me aside and don't understand my importance.
They even forget to love those who are nearest to them."
And waiting no longer, Love went out completely.
Suddenly...
A child entered the room and saw the three candles no longer burning.
The child began to cry,
"Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit until the end."
Then the Fourth Candle spoke gently to the little boy,
"Don't be afraid, for I Am Hope, and while I still burn,
we can re-light the other candles."
With shining eyes, the child took the Candle of Hope
and lit the other three candles.
Never let the Flame of Hope go out.
With Hope in your life, no matter how bad things may be,
Peace, Faith and Love may shine brightly once again.
how true , how true
we people lost peace when the first blood shed on earth
revenge is a bitch
we lost faith thru the lost of peace , we think we pray
thats not faith
we losing love
but pls never lose hope
i lost hope , but i will never lose love
"Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"
So who's going to watch you die?..
you only want the one you cant have
want
@ 12:35 AM
The Four Candles burned slowly.
Their ambiance was so soft you could hear them speak...
The first candle said, "I Am Peace, but these days, nobody wants to keep me lit."
Then Peace's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
The second candle said, "I Am Faith, but these days, I am no longer indispensable."
Then Faith's flame slowly diminished and went out completely.
Sadly the third candle spoke, "I Am Love and I haven't the strength to stay lit any longer."
"People put me aside and don't understand my importance.
They even forget to love those who are nearest to them."
And waiting no longer, Love went out completely.
Suddenly...
A child entered the room and saw the three candles no longer burning.
The child began to cry,
"Why are you not burning? You are supposed to stay lit until the end."
Then the Fourth Candle spoke gently to the little boy,
"Don't be afraid, for I Am Hope, and while I still burn,
we can re-light the other candles."
With shining eyes, the child took the Candle of Hope
and lit the other three candles.
Never let the Flame of Hope go out.
With Hope in your life, no matter how bad things may be,
Peace, Faith and Love may shine brightly once again.
how true , how true
we people lost peace when the first blood shed on earth
revenge is a bitch
we lost faith thru the lost of peace , we think we pray
thats not faith
we losing love
but pls never lose hope
i lost hope , but i will never lose love
"Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous pacers bracing for bad news
And then the nurse comes round and everyone will lift their heads
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said that "Love is watching someone die"
So who's going to watch you die?..
you only want the one you cant have
want
@ 12:35 AM
i wish i could keep everyone
but then "amor fati"
yesterday at bed i sobbed
the way i am goin abt things is wrong
im taking ppl for granted
i sobbed.
it suddenly flashed memories of when i was younger and me and my dad we were like buddies
so close , so so close
we would go cycling together and all just the two of us
well it wasnt extravagant
but it sure feels like family
i cried because i am dissapointed that im sad over love
over a girl
but i dont really know the real value of it , i gez
unconditional love
loving a child is tough , i dont know if i can love sumone that much
so i vouch yesterday to tell my dad that i love him
so i went to my dad normal talk
then i said hey i never told you this before but
i really love you.
he cried.hahz
he did.
and hes a damn soldier he dont cry
i am an asshole
but i shall be an asshole who takes good care of his parent
death is like when you're mom is askin you to stop playin in the playground
the see-saws and the other toys and you are getting quite bored
and the kids , the kids they dont really play with me
so can i like go home mum?
love for sumone will end
but love will not
i just hope my marriage will not be the death of my love
if there ever is gonna be one
ouh yea i bought really nice choc truffle cake from han's cafe for my aunts bdae its really nice.
it seems for every bday now , im the cake guy
im getting good at it will post pictures another day
alot of food. and chocolates
@ 12:21 AM
but then "amor fati"
yesterday at bed i sobbed
the way i am goin abt things is wrong
im taking ppl for granted
i sobbed.
it suddenly flashed memories of when i was younger and me and my dad we were like buddies
so close , so so close
we would go cycling together and all just the two of us
well it wasnt extravagant
but it sure feels like family
i cried because i am dissapointed that im sad over love
over a girl
but i dont really know the real value of it , i gez
unconditional love
loving a child is tough , i dont know if i can love sumone that much
so i vouch yesterday to tell my dad that i love him
so i went to my dad normal talk
then i said hey i never told you this before but
i really love you.
he cried.hahz
he did.
and hes a damn soldier he dont cry
i am an asshole
but i shall be an asshole who takes good care of his parent
death is like when you're mom is askin you to stop playin in the playground
the see-saws and the other toys and you are getting quite bored
and the kids , the kids they dont really play with me
so can i like go home mum?
love for sumone will end
but love will not
i just hope my marriage will not be the death of my love
if there ever is gonna be one
ouh yea i bought really nice choc truffle cake from han's cafe for my aunts bdae its really nice.
it seems for every bday now , im the cake guy
im getting good at it will post pictures another day
alot of food. and chocolates
@ 12:21 AM
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
everybody is pretty , really is (i swear i mean this)
its just that in our world only one set a beauty is aprreciated
everybody is beautiful
love yourself for who you are
and die hoping others would do the same
dont look at me as if i've failed
look at me as if im trying
seriously trying
not giving up and trying
its not really easy being a bad guy
not all that fun
our relationship was like a cancer
if it wasnt for my infedelity
it would have self destruct eithers
it was like going to the doctor and getting it treated
and now i came back with the potion
a cancer it was
u wish it dint happened
but it did
im not running from it
i might die from it
i might not
the same probability that life gave me to start of with
btw nip/tuck is one good show
i could grow up to be a heartless bastard or
a nice guy who purge by endless troubles
she said
"people lie, babe. that's the real truth. they SAY they dont; but what's there to believe?"
i did what i could , what i should
the key to the past i dont hve
the answers to solution i dont keep
i lie.i really do
u know i do
@ 11:45 PM
its just that in our world only one set a beauty is aprreciated
everybody is beautiful
love yourself for who you are
and die hoping others would do the same
dont look at me as if i've failed
look at me as if im trying
seriously trying
not giving up and trying
its not really easy being a bad guy
not all that fun
our relationship was like a cancer
if it wasnt for my infedelity
it would have self destruct eithers
it was like going to the doctor and getting it treated
and now i came back with the potion
a cancer it was
u wish it dint happened
but it did
im not running from it
i might die from it
i might not
the same probability that life gave me to start of with
btw nip/tuck is one good show
i could grow up to be a heartless bastard or
a nice guy who purge by endless troubles
she said
"people lie, babe. that's the real truth. they SAY they dont; but what's there to believe?"
i did what i could , what i should
the key to the past i dont hve
the answers to solution i dont keep
i lie.i really do
u know i do
@ 11:45 PM
Where do I begin to tell a story of
how great a love can be,
the sweet love story that is older than the sea,
the simple truth
about the love she brings to me?
Where do I start? With her first
hello she gave a meaning to this empty world of mine.
There'd never be another love, another time.
She came into my life and made the living fine.
she fills my heart,she fills my heart with very
special things,with angel songs, with wild imaginings.
She fills my soul with so much love that anywhere
I go I'm never lonely. With her along
who could be lonely? I reach for her hand,
it's always there. How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now but this much I can say: I know I'll need her
till the stars all burn away and she'll be there.
@ 10:12 PM
how great a love can be,
the sweet love story that is older than the sea,
the simple truth
about the love she brings to me?
Where do I start? With her first
hello she gave a meaning to this empty world of mine.
There'd never be another love, another time.
She came into my life and made the living fine.
she fills my heart,she fills my heart with very
special things,with angel songs, with wild imaginings.
She fills my soul with so much love that anywhere
I go I'm never lonely. With her along
who could be lonely? I reach for her hand,
it's always there. How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now but this much I can say: I know I'll need her
till the stars all burn away and she'll be there.
@ 10:12 PM
too FAST to live , too YOUNG to die
Just thought i share
what im gonna do with my days
and others can adopt this shcedule too..
i downloaded it
its only fair
Day 1: Chest, biceps
Bench presses 3 sets 6- 8 reps
Incline bench presses 2 sets 6- 8 reps
Dips with added weights 2 sets 8-10 reps
Barbell curls 3 sets 6-10 reps
Dumbbell curls 2 sets 6-10 reps
Day 2: Thighs
Squats 3 sets 6-10 reps
Leg presses 2 sets 8-10 reps
Leg curls 2 sets 8-10 reps
Day 4: Shoulder, triceps
Presses behind neck 3 sets 6- 8 reps
Upright row 2 sets 8-10 reps
Side laterals 2 sets 8-10 reps
Lying triceps presses 3 sets 6-10 reps
Triceps pulley pushdown 2 sets 8-10 reps
Day 6: Back. calves
Chins with added weight 3 sets 8-10 reps
Lat pull to neck 2 sets 8-10 reps
Barbell bent-over row 2 sets 6-10 reps
Seated cable row 2 sets 6-10 reps
Standing calf raise 3 sets 8-12 reps
Seated calf raise 2 sets 8-12 reps
i pray that people will recognise others for their real worth.
Sometimes people never see you for what you
really are
that which nourishes me , destroys me
@ 4:20 PM
Just thought i share
what im gonna do with my days
and others can adopt this shcedule too..
i downloaded it
its only fair
Day 1: Chest, biceps
Bench presses 3 sets 6- 8 reps
Incline bench presses 2 sets 6- 8 reps
Dips with added weights 2 sets 8-10 reps
Barbell curls 3 sets 6-10 reps
Dumbbell curls 2 sets 6-10 reps
Day 2: Thighs
Squats 3 sets 6-10 reps
Leg presses 2 sets 8-10 reps
Leg curls 2 sets 8-10 reps
Day 4: Shoulder, triceps
Presses behind neck 3 sets 6- 8 reps
Upright row 2 sets 8-10 reps
Side laterals 2 sets 8-10 reps
Lying triceps presses 3 sets 6-10 reps
Triceps pulley pushdown 2 sets 8-10 reps
Day 6: Back. calves
Chins with added weight 3 sets 8-10 reps
Lat pull to neck 2 sets 8-10 reps
Barbell bent-over row 2 sets 6-10 reps
Seated cable row 2 sets 6-10 reps
Standing calf raise 3 sets 8-12 reps
Seated calf raise 2 sets 8-12 reps
i pray that people will recognise others for their real worth.
Sometimes people never see you for what you
really are
that which nourishes me , destroys me
@ 4:20 PM
Monday, December 17, 2007
sometime when im alone i cry
cause i am on my own
the tears i cry are bitter and warm
they flow with life and take no form
i cry because my heart is torn
i find it difficult to carry on
if i had a ear to confide in
i would cry among my treasured friends
but who do you know that stops for long
to help another carry on
The world moves fast
and it would rather pass by
then to stop and see what makes one cry
so painful and sad
And sometimes
I cry - tupac shakur
@ 10:30 PM
cause i am on my own
the tears i cry are bitter and warm
they flow with life and take no form
i cry because my heart is torn
i find it difficult to carry on
if i had a ear to confide in
i would cry among my treasured friends
but who do you know that stops for long
to help another carry on
The world moves fast
and it would rather pass by
then to stop and see what makes one cry
so painful and sad
And sometimes
I cry - tupac shakur
@ 10:30 PM
The world but seems to be
yet is nothing more
than a line drawn
between light and shadow.
Decipher the message
of this dream-script
and learn to distinguish time
from Eternity.
I kinda tryin to distance myself frm the world
firstly its not that im hurt or high on anything
im sure u've heard this cliche "its a wild world" tell you what it can really be one
i've been spending some time analysing , dechipering whatever u call it
and i found out its a sad sad world we live in
follow me on this
and at the end after reading do your own thinking and get ur own views this is just
what i'd i notice , gather , observe
the only way for u to have ur lunch is to eat another's man lunch ; survival
as technically that could be another man food
and he is hungry coz u ate his lunch
you are technically voiding one of his happiness by getting yours be it job , girl?
yes till today theres still is people going hungry in other country
lets not talk about that
im sure you sick of that
alright lets not look so far
prolly this moment when im typing a bank is pulling a house from sumone
cause he didnt make payment for his house loan
wait lets see where he's gonna stay
the process of him getting a place to stay would take some time
so if he/she is old she prolly die by the time a place is found
there case solved
its like you want to correct a wrong by trying everything but you end making more wrongs and that wrong still isnt right
but you need to correct the wrong to make it principally right
but u end being so wrong so should you just let it be wrong in the first place and let it dwell on ur principles?
remember some time u dont choose to be wrong circumstances chose it.
i dont know about other guys but i'll rather die than cheat on myself , my principles , my virtues
i'll be like an animal then
damn thinking too much does has it purges
i cant really differentiate between reality and the other thing
whats that word
i keep wanting to do things i see in tv
namely prison break , heroes
i want to save the world and i want to break free
the selfishness of the world
i mean at the of the day its each man for himself kinda shit
its like we were programed that way
put out there alone to fend and its survival of the fittest
who dont follow , dies
but no other human really cares about another man happiness
its boils down to his own needs as gettin the other men happy would get him happy too
i mean many of you guys would feel the same way at one point of time
i was the exact same guy who was selfish , do i deserve to figue this out?
that the world is selfish
i mean i myself impose it upon the world
its like a ruthless cycle we cant get out frm
a matrix of sorts
when u realise its too late
u are already playin it
sometimes u have some issues and would resolve it to the interest of a certain group and there are thousands of group in the world
it would maybe please half of them , it would infuriate the other
so its made that way
Its made that way
we are humans
we are the best of creatures
we have brains
we can offer love
we should be the best
or is this apparent only now
for us to adapt to time ; evolution?
i have true friends , a good and nice family
they care about my happiness , my life
but they can only do that to a certain extend
life made certain of it
so just in case nobody believe the boy who cried wolf
i love you people
i know love is bullshit in this world
i found out
i love you mom , dad , far , steph , family and friends
they only allowed me to mention four names
im sure in that list it aint all the same back.
im merely a soldier , a pawn in all this
im sorie i hurt you
im sorie
im a prisoner in the world
and the chains are binding my heart
theres no such thing as fate , they left us a long time ago
remember the four candles story
every light went away
You’ve frozen this heart, broken these wings
I need to learn again what freedom brings
Prisoner in the realm of emptiness
Breakout from this void, land of darkness.
Shadows of past can’t ruin the future
Spread my wings again just like a vulture
Ride the chilling breeze, once more I dare
Hunt for love begins somewhere out there
Beauty of forgiveness is my gain
Farewell, my unnecessary pain
Search for happiness that once was yours
Entirety of heavens is all yours
View the world through different set of eyes
Freedom gives you the power to rise.
nights.
just in case you guys are wondering
whos the one with the smile
thats not me , thats my sanity
we obviously dont choose our paths
we dont choose who we want to be
but we've got the choice to fill our paths with righteousness
and its not to late to change who we want to be
@ 2:20 AM
yet is nothing more
than a line drawn
between light and shadow.
Decipher the message
of this dream-script
and learn to distinguish time
from Eternity.
I kinda tryin to distance myself frm the world
firstly its not that im hurt or high on anything
im sure u've heard this cliche "its a wild world" tell you what it can really be one
i've been spending some time analysing , dechipering whatever u call it
and i found out its a sad sad world we live in
follow me on this
and at the end after reading do your own thinking and get ur own views this is just
what i'd i notice , gather , observe
the only way for u to have ur lunch is to eat another's man lunch ; survival
as technically that could be another man food
and he is hungry coz u ate his lunch
you are technically voiding one of his happiness by getting yours be it job , girl?
yes till today theres still is people going hungry in other country
lets not talk about that
im sure you sick of that
alright lets not look so far
prolly this moment when im typing a bank is pulling a house from sumone
cause he didnt make payment for his house loan
wait lets see where he's gonna stay
the process of him getting a place to stay would take some time
so if he/she is old she prolly die by the time a place is found
there case solved
its like you want to correct a wrong by trying everything but you end making more wrongs and that wrong still isnt right
but you need to correct the wrong to make it principally right
but u end being so wrong so should you just let it be wrong in the first place and let it dwell on ur principles?
remember some time u dont choose to be wrong circumstances chose it.
i dont know about other guys but i'll rather die than cheat on myself , my principles , my virtues
i'll be like an animal then
damn thinking too much does has it purges
i cant really differentiate between reality and the other thing
whats that word
i keep wanting to do things i see in tv
namely prison break , heroes
i want to save the world and i want to break free
the selfishness of the world
i mean at the of the day its each man for himself kinda shit
its like we were programed that way
put out there alone to fend and its survival of the fittest
who dont follow , dies
but no other human really cares about another man happiness
its boils down to his own needs as gettin the other men happy would get him happy too
i mean many of you guys would feel the same way at one point of time
i was the exact same guy who was selfish , do i deserve to figue this out?
that the world is selfish
i mean i myself impose it upon the world
its like a ruthless cycle we cant get out frm
a matrix of sorts
when u realise its too late
u are already playin it
sometimes u have some issues and would resolve it to the interest of a certain group and there are thousands of group in the world
it would maybe please half of them , it would infuriate the other
so its made that way
Its made that way
we are humans
we are the best of creatures
we have brains
we can offer love
we should be the best
or is this apparent only now
for us to adapt to time ; evolution?
i have true friends , a good and nice family
they care about my happiness , my life
but they can only do that to a certain extend
life made certain of it
so just in case nobody believe the boy who cried wolf
i love you people
i know love is bullshit in this world
i found out
i love you mom , dad , far , steph , family and friends
they only allowed me to mention four names
im sure in that list it aint all the same back.
im merely a soldier , a pawn in all this
im sorie i hurt you
im sorie
im a prisoner in the world
and the chains are binding my heart
theres no such thing as fate , they left us a long time ago
remember the four candles story
every light went away
You’ve frozen this heart, broken these wings
I need to learn again what freedom brings
Prisoner in the realm of emptiness
Breakout from this void, land of darkness.
Shadows of past can’t ruin the future
Spread my wings again just like a vulture
Ride the chilling breeze, once more I dare
Hunt for love begins somewhere out there
Beauty of forgiveness is my gain
Farewell, my unnecessary pain
Search for happiness that once was yours
Entirety of heavens is all yours
View the world through different set of eyes
Freedom gives you the power to rise.
nights.
just in case you guys are wondering
whos the one with the smile
thats not me , thats my sanity
we obviously dont choose our paths
we dont choose who we want to be
but we've got the choice to fill our paths with righteousness
and its not to late to change who we want to be
@ 2:20 AM
Sunday, December 16, 2007
if everytime i miss you , i'd write a poem
i could fill a book by now.
obviously
i'll hide the book away.
=)
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
i will try to fix you
An eye is meant to see things,
The soul is here for its own joy.
A head has one use: for loving a true love.
Legs: to run after.
we'll die trying
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
lets remember what(death cab cutie) sarah said.
@ 1:15 PM
i could fill a book by now.
obviously
i'll hide the book away.
=)
lights will guide you home
and ignite your bones
i will try to fix you
An eye is meant to see things,
The soul is here for its own joy.
A head has one use: for loving a true love.
Legs: to run after.
we'll die trying
The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
lets remember what(death cab cutie) sarah said.
@ 1:15 PM
Thursday, December 13, 2007
life in the fast lane
is now or never
depends on whether
you're a driver or a dreamer
i wanna be a fighter
Love me forever
Or until we reach an end
If ever you need me,
I'll always be around,
To bring back the laughter,
Where deep in your heart it's found.
You will never have to worry
For I will always be here
To chase away the sadness
And wipe away a tear
@ 7:00 PM
is now or never
depends on whether
you're a driver or a dreamer
i wanna be a fighter
Love me forever
Or until we reach an end
If ever you need me,
I'll always be around,
To bring back the laughter,
Where deep in your heart it's found.
You will never have to worry
For I will always be here
To chase away the sadness
And wipe away a tear
@ 7:00 PM
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
This is gonna be a long post haha
a song by
Barbara Streisand and some other random stuff that i could come up with thru a span of time at my bed
"I Am A Simple Man
So I Sing A Simple Song
Never Been So Much In Love
And Never Hurt So Bad At The Same Time.
I Am A Simple Man
And I Play A Simple Tune
I Wish That I Could See You Once Again
Across The Room Like The First Time.
I Just Want To Hold You I Don't Want To Hold You Down
I Hear What You're Saying And You're Spinning My Head Around
And I Can't Make It Alone.
The Ending Of The Tale
Is The Singing Of The Song
Make Me Proud To Be Your Man Only You Can Make Me Strong
Like The Last Time.
I Just Want To Hold You I Don't Want To Hold You Down
I Hear What You're Saying And You're Spinning My Head Around
And I Can't Make It Alone."
Raindrops falling from heaven
Will never wash away my misery,
But since we’re not together
I’ll wait for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you’ll never see.
Someday when my crying’s done,
I’m gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun.
I may be a fool,
But till then, darling, you’ll
Never see me complain:
I’ll do my crying in the rain.
If as we’re walking a hand should slip free
I’ll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me. We swore we’d travel, darlin’ side by side
We’d help each other stay in stride
But each other’s steps fall so differently
But I’ll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me. Now everyone dreams of love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So let’s make our steps clear that the other may see
And I’ll wait for you.
If I should fall behind, wait for me.
Now there’s a beautiful river in the valley ahead,
clear, salty water,
rushed down my face,
as a picture of you,
flashed through my mind.
you're long gone and I see that,
I understand that,
but my heart still refuses,
to find acceptance.
"Move on" is what my mind says,
"Accept it and walk forward",
But my heart keeps refusing,
Keeps on saying "I'll wait".
Going deeper into darkness,
my mind running in circles,
emotions running wild,
I need you, I miss you.
"Useless, impossible",
how I hate those thoughts,
just name it, anything I'll do,
cut myself?- I'll do it for you.
Crimson red blood,
Flowed out my wrist,
I need to be with you,
I'm sorry, I love you.
my eyes are now heavy,
white lights are all I see,
Goodnight forever?
Or is it just me?
I woke up from my slumber,
and gazed at the night sky,
I'll wait for you,
I promise I'll do..
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ou’st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee. - shakespeare
@ 12:09 AM
a song by
Barbara Streisand and some other random stuff that i could come up with thru a span of time at my bed
"I Am A Simple Man
So I Sing A Simple Song
Never Been So Much In Love
And Never Hurt So Bad At The Same Time.
I Am A Simple Man
And I Play A Simple Tune
I Wish That I Could See You Once Again
Across The Room Like The First Time.
I Just Want To Hold You I Don't Want To Hold You Down
I Hear What You're Saying And You're Spinning My Head Around
And I Can't Make It Alone.
The Ending Of The Tale
Is The Singing Of The Song
Make Me Proud To Be Your Man Only You Can Make Me Strong
Like The Last Time.
I Just Want To Hold You I Don't Want To Hold You Down
I Hear What You're Saying And You're Spinning My Head Around
And I Can't Make It Alone."
Raindrops falling from heaven
Will never wash away my misery,
But since we’re not together
I’ll wait for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you’ll never see.
Someday when my crying’s done,
I’m gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun.
I may be a fool,
But till then, darling, you’ll
Never see me complain:
I’ll do my crying in the rain.
If as we’re walking a hand should slip free
I’ll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me. We swore we’d travel, darlin’ side by side
We’d help each other stay in stride
But each other’s steps fall so differently
But I’ll wait for you
And if I should fall behind
Wait for me. Now everyone dreams of love lasting and true
But you and I know what this world can do
So let’s make our steps clear that the other may see
And I’ll wait for you.
If I should fall behind, wait for me.
Now there’s a beautiful river in the valley ahead,
clear, salty water,
rushed down my face,
as a picture of you,
flashed through my mind.
you're long gone and I see that,
I understand that,
but my heart still refuses,
to find acceptance.
"Move on" is what my mind says,
"Accept it and walk forward",
But my heart keeps refusing,
Keeps on saying "I'll wait".
Going deeper into darkness,
my mind running in circles,
emotions running wild,
I need you, I miss you.
"Useless, impossible",
how I hate those thoughts,
just name it, anything I'll do,
cut myself?- I'll do it for you.
Crimson red blood,
Flowed out my wrist,
I need to be with you,
I'm sorry, I love you.
my eyes are now heavy,
white lights are all I see,
Goodnight forever?
Or is it just me?
I woke up from my slumber,
and gazed at the night sky,
I'll wait for you,
I promise I'll do..
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ou’st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee. - shakespeare
@ 12:09 AM
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
- paulo neruda (translated)
@ 11:27 PM
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
- paulo neruda (translated)
@ 11:27 PM
Monday, December 10, 2007
Falls after falls
i finally came clear to what its about
i have pull thru it all
it did made me wonder at first what's this all for?
its knew it wasnt the glitter nor was it the gold
strangely more like the walk in the middle of the mall
with that simple smile that'll stick with you till ur old
i need to break this wall
im clouded with thought of having it all
its not being famous
like what i've been taught
its about having the heart to help who that may crawl
it made me think about, i finally came clear what its about
i am simple man and i sing a simple tune
its a choice.
i like that choice
its a life of possibilities
other chose to be rich
some chose to be spiritual
i just choose to be me
i choose to be free.
my reclusive simple life
and now i need one to live me with me thru all
and see me again thru my falls
i've sinned like them all
but i promise to love you with my all
you know who you are so pls stop the stall
well , i still do , i hope u'll call
im writing all this for you , i know you'll say
go away , i hate you to the core
its ok i'll wait till theres no more sore
i make an apology for what i broke
and i want to live with that wreckage
im sorie im still adopting to that idea , its a first for me
Forgive me , i dont write as much as i do
i cant afford the retreat as much as i use to
i dont write like those who get paid
so dont judge me
you say im a loser , you say im fucked
i say im cool
they told me to wake up
i woke up and i saw whats true
like i said my silence isnt my weakness
its a skill im developing
for now that is
i keep silent so that you can shout and hear what you're shouting about
it's all you ,love
fun is not fun when fun isnt fun for someone else
its not about being the best , its not being the one with the cash
there's no naughty child in the world " fred claus " santa's brother
this is my tune
i've got what i want
a true friend , a girl i truly love
and a family that i'll stand by
and i've got myself
my new year resolution is to not be emotional!
its the same if you invert it , its called an ambigram
you'll see it somewhere else
lets hope its not gonna hurt
i seriously dont know when im gonna write next till then
im going to the place where i call home nowadays ahahahahah
@ 6:27 PM
i finally came clear to what its about
i have pull thru it all
it did made me wonder at first what's this all for?
its knew it wasnt the glitter nor was it the gold
strangely more like the walk in the middle of the mall
with that simple smile that'll stick with you till ur old
i need to break this wall
im clouded with thought of having it all
its not being famous
like what i've been taught
its about having the heart to help who that may crawl
it made me think about, i finally came clear what its about
i am simple man and i sing a simple tune
its a choice.
i like that choice
its a life of possibilities
other chose to be rich
some chose to be spiritual
i just choose to be me
i choose to be free.
my reclusive simple life
and now i need one to live me with me thru all
and see me again thru my falls
i've sinned like them all
but i promise to love you with my all
you know who you are so pls stop the stall
well , i still do , i hope u'll call
im writing all this for you , i know you'll say
go away , i hate you to the core
its ok i'll wait till theres no more sore
i make an apology for what i broke
and i want to live with that wreckage
im sorie im still adopting to that idea , its a first for me
Forgive me , i dont write as much as i do
i cant afford the retreat as much as i use to
i dont write like those who get paid
so dont judge me
you say im a loser , you say im fucked
i say im cool
they told me to wake up
i woke up and i saw whats true
like i said my silence isnt my weakness
its a skill im developing
for now that is
i keep silent so that you can shout and hear what you're shouting about
it's all you ,love
fun is not fun when fun isnt fun for someone else
its not about being the best , its not being the one with the cash
there's no naughty child in the world " fred claus " santa's brother
this is my tune
i've got what i want
a true friend , a girl i truly love
and a family that i'll stand by
and i've got myself
my new year resolution is to not be emotional!
its the same if you invert it , its called an ambigram
you'll see it somewhere else
lets hope its not gonna hurt
i seriously dont know when im gonna write next till then
im going to the place where i call home nowadays ahahahahah
@ 6:27 PM