Monday, July 30, 2007
Everyone needs an escape sometime
its just that you cant stop time everything is moving and you cant afford to stay stagnant
"no man would travel the same river twice"
for it wont be the same the river and it wont be the same man
so in the context of this world silence is probably the best escape
the best thing a parent can give to a child is education
the rest is a bonus.
with education come greater possibilities for life
education makes you have better judgement to facilitate you to have better choices in life.
i dont need you to babysit me , to scold me , to think that i need your attention
maybe what i need is the comfort of your voice.
my muscles is aching i guess this is the effect of the fever.
What is the human pain tolerance level?like hw much headache can one take?
What is life without death
What is good without evil
What is light without dark
What is revenge without poison
What is hate without sorrow
What is love without you
conquer death with life
conquer evil with good
present light to darkness
doing all three above ,revenge and hate would dissapear
therefore there wont be poison nor sorrow
love?
@ 4:17 PM
its just that you cant stop time everything is moving and you cant afford to stay stagnant
"no man would travel the same river twice"
for it wont be the same the river and it wont be the same man
so in the context of this world silence is probably the best escape
the best thing a parent can give to a child is education
the rest is a bonus.
with education come greater possibilities for life
education makes you have better judgement to facilitate you to have better choices in life.
i dont need you to babysit me , to scold me , to think that i need your attention
maybe what i need is the comfort of your voice.
my muscles is aching i guess this is the effect of the fever.
What is the human pain tolerance level?like hw much headache can one take?
What is life without death
What is good without evil
What is light without dark
What is revenge without poison
What is hate without sorrow
What is love without you
conquer death with life
conquer evil with good
present light to darkness
doing all three above ,revenge and hate would dissapear
therefore there wont be poison nor sorrow
love?
@ 4:17 PM
everyone is different , and needs different approaches for us to adapt to them
different ways to talk to them
to relate to them
humans like plants need alot of time and care to tend to them
pick the plants you want to raise, believe in them
there so many plants in the world make sure you have the right reasons for choosing your plants and not because it was a case of the right time and right place.unless its family
the fruits doesnt really matter even if it doesnt bear any
it was a joy to plant.
@ 12:47 AM
different ways to talk to them
to relate to them
humans like plants need alot of time and care to tend to them
pick the plants you want to raise, believe in them
there so many plants in the world make sure you have the right reasons for choosing your plants and not because it was a case of the right time and right place.unless its family
the fruits doesnt really matter even if it doesnt bear any
it was a joy to plant.
@ 12:47 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
you know they're crooked,
crippled, frightened, broken, hurting
where are the little girls
where are the little girls...
@ 10:37 PM
crippled, frightened, broken, hurting
where are the little girls
where are the little girls...
@ 10:37 PM
Guess what
Im going to The Cure concert on Wednesday , thats not the strange part considering i nvr heard of the cure before prior to this and i dont even know what genre of music they jam to
but still the stranger thing is who im going with.hahz
but im not complaining. The stupid things love does for you.
Virgo's horoscope for today
and no im not a virgin or virgorian whatever u call virgo ppl ahahhahaa
"A friend is promising to turn over a new leaf -- for about the twentieth time. It is perfectly normal for you to be skeptical of what they say, but try not to let that keep you from showing your support. Encouragement is all they're asking for, so give it to them. Be open-minded about their attempt at a transformation, and give them the benefit of the doubt. They have been in your corner so many times in the past, and it will be a joy to return the favor. Believe that they can do it."
you need an other to believe in your dreams , in yourself
@ 5:56 PM
Im going to The Cure concert on Wednesday , thats not the strange part considering i nvr heard of the cure before prior to this and i dont even know what genre of music they jam to
but still the stranger thing is who im going with.hahz
but im not complaining. The stupid things love does for you.
Virgo's horoscope for today
and no im not a virgin or virgorian whatever u call virgo ppl ahahhahaa
"A friend is promising to turn over a new leaf -- for about the twentieth time. It is perfectly normal for you to be skeptical of what they say, but try not to let that keep you from showing your support. Encouragement is all they're asking for, so give it to them. Be open-minded about their attempt at a transformation, and give them the benefit of the doubt. They have been in your corner so many times in the past, and it will be a joy to return the favor. Believe that they can do it."
you need an other to believe in your dreams , in yourself
@ 5:56 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
A man can be happy with any woman as long as he does not love her
I am not young enough to know everything
If you want to tell people the truth , make them laugh otherwise they'll kil you
Illusion is the first of all pleasures
Morality , like art , means drawing a line someplace
Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions , their lives a mimicry , their passions a quotation.
Patriotism is the virtue of the vicious
Who, being loved, is poor?
The well-bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.
The public is wonderfully tolerant. It forgives everything except genius.
Life is too important to be taken seriously.
There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.
Women have a wonderful instinct about things. They can discover everything except the obvious.
Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood.
The true perfection of man lies not in what man has, but in what man is.
The longer I live the more keenly I feel that whatever was good enough for our fathers is not good enough for us.
Between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship.
@ 9:29 AM
I am not young enough to know everything
If you want to tell people the truth , make them laugh otherwise they'll kil you
Illusion is the first of all pleasures
Morality , like art , means drawing a line someplace
Most people are other people. Their thoughts are someone elses opinions , their lives a mimicry , their passions a quotation.
Patriotism is the virtue of the vicious
Who, being loved, is poor?
The well-bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.
The public is wonderfully tolerant. It forgives everything except genius.
Life is too important to be taken seriously.
There are only two tragedies in life: one is not getting what one wants, and the other is getting it.
Women have a wonderful instinct about things. They can discover everything except the obvious.
Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood.
The true perfection of man lies not in what man has, but in what man is.
The longer I live the more keenly I feel that whatever was good enough for our fathers is not good enough for us.
Between men and women there is no friendship possible. There is passion, enmity, worship, love, but no friendship.
@ 9:29 AM
Sleepless nights has become a norm now
so as to wiss them away
we try to fly it by(not literally far)
on a typical night
we met a new friend a rocker
thread deep to the heart
tattoed to the soul
he sat with us for about four hours ended up takin a cab and insisting on paying it as well
we ended up talkin abt life , love , music and literature
he studies macbeth , william
we shall talk again man
serious, he's 28 btw
i was away talkin to another group of people who we just met as well
who was rather friendly with us and they made the first move
they were a group of uni students
frm canada and nus
so we talked and they were tricia sec schmate anyway
haha so we talk , alot of topic alot of quotes
politics , science , arts , history , morals
"art is about appreciating the flaw"
pictures were taken , drinks were bottomed
this canada girl was like "can i take a picture of both of you"
i want to remember you guys
so anyway she was explaining abt canada abt the rave parties and all
hahah we should all study in canada balls ahahah
maybe just far and his power rangers
talk till the birds started to chirp
ooops mr sunny starting to shine
so went hm with the rocker dude as stated above
mike a kkk whitepower guy.no hes not kkk just that hes german (no im not racist its a joke)
and tricia left in another cab
a typical day.not forgetting the rocker dude finally ending up doin something stupid
and not forgetting the presence of stimulants
the presence of coincidence
and tears.
all in a day
and we got tickets to the rocker dude recital at esplanade yay.
love was omni present
time is a best judge of one's character
@ 4:20 AM
so as to wiss them away
we try to fly it by(not literally far)
on a typical night
we met a new friend a rocker
thread deep to the heart
tattoed to the soul
he sat with us for about four hours ended up takin a cab and insisting on paying it as well
we ended up talkin abt life , love , music and literature
he studies macbeth , william
we shall talk again man
serious, he's 28 btw
i was away talkin to another group of people who we just met as well
who was rather friendly with us and they made the first move
they were a group of uni students
frm canada and nus
so we talked and they were tricia sec schmate anyway
haha so we talk , alot of topic alot of quotes
politics , science , arts , history , morals
"art is about appreciating the flaw"
pictures were taken , drinks were bottomed
this canada girl was like "can i take a picture of both of you"
i want to remember you guys
so anyway she was explaining abt canada abt the rave parties and all
hahah we should all study in canada balls ahahah
maybe just far and his power rangers
talk till the birds started to chirp
ooops mr sunny starting to shine
so went hm with the rocker dude as stated above
mike a kkk whitepower guy.no hes not kkk just that hes german (no im not racist its a joke)
and tricia left in another cab
a typical day.not forgetting the rocker dude finally ending up doin something stupid
and not forgetting the presence of stimulants
the presence of coincidence
and tears.
all in a day
and we got tickets to the rocker dude recital at esplanade yay.
love was omni present
time is a best judge of one's character
@ 4:20 AM
i dedicate this to steph
I'd rather have the thought of you
To hold against my heart,
My spirit to be taught of you
With west winds blowing,
Than all the warm caresses
Of another love's bestowing,
Or all the glories of the world In which you had no part.
I'd rather have the theme of you
To thread my nights and days,
I'd rather have the dream of you
With faint stars glowing,
I'd rather have the want of you,
The rich, elusive taunt of you
Forever and forever and forever unconfessed
Than claim the alien comfort Of any other's breast.
O lover! O my lover, That this should come to me!
I'd rather have the hope of you,
Ah, Love, I'd rather grope for you
Within the great abyss
Than claim another's kiss-
Alone I'd rather go my way
Throughout eternity.
@ 3:53 AM
I'd rather have the thought of you
To hold against my heart,
My spirit to be taught of you
With west winds blowing,
Than all the warm caresses
Of another love's bestowing,
Or all the glories of the world In which you had no part.
I'd rather have the theme of you
To thread my nights and days,
I'd rather have the dream of you
With faint stars glowing,
I'd rather have the want of you,
The rich, elusive taunt of you
Forever and forever and forever unconfessed
Than claim the alien comfort Of any other's breast.
O lover! O my lover, That this should come to me!
I'd rather have the hope of you,
Ah, Love, I'd rather grope for you
Within the great abyss
Than claim another's kiss-
Alone I'd rather go my way
Throughout eternity.
@ 3:53 AM
i dedicate this to my good friend
you know who you are.
To my retired friend Wei
It is almost as hard for friends to meet
As for the morning and evening stars.
Tonight then is a rare event,
Joining, in the candlelight,
Two men who were young not long ago
But now are turning grey at the temples. ...
To find that half our friends are dead
Shocks us, burns our hearts with grief.
We little guessed it would be twenty years
Before I could visit you again.
When I went away, you were still unmarried;
But now these boys and girls in a row
Are very kind to their father's old friend.
They ask me where I have been on my journey;
And then, when we have talked awhile,
They bring and show me wines and dishes,
Spring chives cut in the night-rain
And brown rice cooked freshly a special way. ...
My host proclaims it a festival,
He urges me to drink ten cups --
But what ten cups could make me as drunk
As I always am with your love in my heart? ...
Tomorrow the mountains will separate us;
After tomorrow-who can say?
@ 3:48 AM
you know who you are.
To my retired friend Wei
It is almost as hard for friends to meet
As for the morning and evening stars.
Tonight then is a rare event,
Joining, in the candlelight,
Two men who were young not long ago
But now are turning grey at the temples. ...
To find that half our friends are dead
Shocks us, burns our hearts with grief.
We little guessed it would be twenty years
Before I could visit you again.
When I went away, you were still unmarried;
But now these boys and girls in a row
Are very kind to their father's old friend.
They ask me where I have been on my journey;
And then, when we have talked awhile,
They bring and show me wines and dishes,
Spring chives cut in the night-rain
And brown rice cooked freshly a special way. ...
My host proclaims it a festival,
He urges me to drink ten cups --
But what ten cups could make me as drunk
As I always am with your love in my heart? ...
Tomorrow the mountains will separate us;
After tomorrow-who can say?
@ 3:48 AM
When You Are Old When you are old and gray and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true;
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face.
And bending down beside the glowing bars
Murmur, a little sadly, how love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And his his face amid a crowd of stars.
"Love means to learn to look at yourself
The way one looks at distant things
For you are only one thing among many.
And whoever sees that way heals his heart,
Without knowing it, from various ills
A bird and a tree say to him: Friend.
Then he wants to use himself and things
So that they stand in the glow of ripeness.
It doesnt matter whether he knows what he serves:
Who serves best doesnt always understand."
Czeslaw Milosz (nobel prize winner)
@ 3:39 AM
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true;
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face.
And bending down beside the glowing bars
Murmur, a little sadly, how love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And his his face amid a crowd of stars.
"Love means to learn to look at yourself
The way one looks at distant things
For you are only one thing among many.
And whoever sees that way heals his heart,
Without knowing it, from various ills
A bird and a tree say to him: Friend.
Then he wants to use himself and things
So that they stand in the glow of ripeness.
It doesnt matter whether he knows what he serves:
Who serves best doesnt always understand."
Czeslaw Milosz (nobel prize winner)
@ 3:39 AM
"life's a mystery , dont waste time figuring it out"
cause if you do , u'll realise its nothing and you have wasted your life trying to find out and miss what it was about.
its not the destination that matters its the journey
and in this journey of life i dont know my destination
i just want to live my journey as passionate and humane as possible
not because i want to be right or judge as right
neither because i feel its the right thing to do
but because in my journey i want to share the joy with people at the peak of the summit
thats my destination.
the journey is filled with moments
there's never nothing to do , all the moment are special moments, its your moment.
live ur moments , some man have greatness thrust upon 'em.
you cant rely on others to make you happy , so dont be sad when they cant
it not others duty to make you happy.it yours
people are not their thoughts , they think they are
everyone has evil and good thoughts , you think you are your thoughts , you are not
the decisions you make , they make you
dont let your emotions control you
one thing i've failed in doing is letting my emotions get the better of me most of the time
tsk tsk let emotions be your weapon not be a weapon of your emotions
sometimes you've got to lose your minds before you can come to your senses
its ok to lose your mind.clear the mind of the trash that shouldnt be there
the people that are hardest to love is usually the one that you need the most
if you dont get what you want , you suffer
even if you get what you want you suffer because you cant hold on to it forever
@ 3:05 AM
cause if you do , u'll realise its nothing and you have wasted your life trying to find out and miss what it was about.
its not the destination that matters its the journey
and in this journey of life i dont know my destination
i just want to live my journey as passionate and humane as possible
not because i want to be right or judge as right
neither because i feel its the right thing to do
but because in my journey i want to share the joy with people at the peak of the summit
thats my destination.
the journey is filled with moments
there's never nothing to do , all the moment are special moments, its your moment.
live ur moments , some man have greatness thrust upon 'em.
you cant rely on others to make you happy , so dont be sad when they cant
it not others duty to make you happy.it yours
people are not their thoughts , they think they are
everyone has evil and good thoughts , you think you are your thoughts , you are not
the decisions you make , they make you
dont let your emotions control you
one thing i've failed in doing is letting my emotions get the better of me most of the time
tsk tsk let emotions be your weapon not be a weapon of your emotions
sometimes you've got to lose your minds before you can come to your senses
its ok to lose your mind.clear the mind of the trash that shouldnt be there
the people that are hardest to love is usually the one that you need the most
if you dont get what you want , you suffer
even if you get what you want you suffer because you cant hold on to it forever
@ 3:05 AM
"All the world's a stage,And all the men and women merely players.They have their exits and their entrances,And one man in his time plays many parts,His acts being seven ages."
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet."
Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon 'em."
"The course of true love never did run smooth."
"Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow."
"We that are true lovers run into strange capers; but as all is mortal in nature, so is all nature in love mortal in folly."
@ 2:55 AM
"What's in a name? That which we call a rose By any other name would smell as sweet."
Be not afraid of greatness: some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon 'em."
"The course of true love never did run smooth."
"Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow."
"We that are true lovers run into strange capers; but as all is mortal in nature, so is all nature in love mortal in folly."
@ 2:55 AM
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Now that I've lost everything to you
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grievin'
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl
You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you a sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
"everyone tell you what to do and whats good for you
they dont want you to find your own answers , they want you to believe theirs"
@ 5:52 PM
You say you wanna start something new
And it's breakin' my heart you're leavin'
Baby, I'm grievin'
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you have a lot of nice things to wear
But then a lot of nice things turn bad out there
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
It's hard to get by just upon a smile
Oh, baby, baby, it's a wild world
I'll always remember you like a child, girl
You know I've seen a lot of what the world can do
And it's breakin' my heart in two
Because I never wanna see you a sad girl
Don't be a bad girl
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
Baby, I love you
But if you wanna leave, take good care
I hope you make a lot of nice friends out there
But just remember there's a lot of bad and beware
"everyone tell you what to do and whats good for you
they dont want you to find your own answers , they want you to believe theirs"
@ 5:52 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
Smile an everlasting smile, a smile can bring you near to me.
Don't ever let me find you down, cause that would bring a tear to me.
This world has lost its glory, let's start a brand new story now, my love.
Right now, there'll be no other time and I can show you how, my love.
Talk in everlasting words, and dedicate them all to me.
And I will give you all my life, I'm here if you should call to me.
You think that I don't even mean a single word I say
.It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away.
@ 12:01 PM
Don't ever let me find you down, cause that would bring a tear to me.
This world has lost its glory, let's start a brand new story now, my love.
Right now, there'll be no other time and I can show you how, my love.
Talk in everlasting words, and dedicate them all to me.
And I will give you all my life, I'm here if you should call to me.
You think that I don't even mean a single word I say
.It's only words, and words are all I have, to take your heart away.
@ 12:01 PM
Sunday, July 22, 2007
"Say you want a revolution
We better get on right away
Well you get on your feet
And out on the street
Singing power to the people
Power to the people
Power to the people
Power to the people,
right on- John Lennon"
"I don't believe in magic,
I don't believe in I-ching,
I don't believe in bible,
I don't believe in tarot,
I don't believe in Hitler,
I don't believe in Jesus,
I don't believe in Kennedy,
I don't believe in Buddha,
I don't believe in mantra,
I don't believe in Gita,
I don't believe in yoga,
I don't believe in kings,
I don't believe in Elvis,
I don't believe in Zimmerman,
I don't believe in Beatles,
I just believe in me,
Yoko and me,
And that's reality.
The dream is over,
What can I say?The dream is over,- John Lennon""
Yoko's one lucky girl =)
DTA - Stone Cold Steve Austin
Ask not what your country can do for you ,
ask not what you can do for you.
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you I could never make it alone
It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away
@ 12:43 PM
We better get on right away
Well you get on your feet
And out on the street
Singing power to the people
Power to the people
Power to the people
Power to the people,
right on- John Lennon"
"I don't believe in magic,
I don't believe in I-ching,
I don't believe in bible,
I don't believe in tarot,
I don't believe in Hitler,
I don't believe in Jesus,
I don't believe in Kennedy,
I don't believe in Buddha,
I don't believe in mantra,
I don't believe in Gita,
I don't believe in yoga,
I don't believe in kings,
I don't believe in Elvis,
I don't believe in Zimmerman,
I don't believe in Beatles,
I just believe in me,
Yoko and me,
And that's reality.
The dream is over,
What can I say?The dream is over,- John Lennon""
Yoko's one lucky girl =)
DTA - Stone Cold Steve Austin
Ask not what your country can do for you ,
ask not what you can do for you.
I am a man who would fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you're dreaming of
We'll live forever knowing together
That we did it all for the glory of love
You keep me standing tall
You help me through it all
I'm always strong when you're beside me
I have always needed you I could never make it alone
It's like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away
@ 12:43 PM
maybe one of the reasons for dominance is control
the feeling that you are controlling things
deciding the fate of your decisions , boss of your own
like using a cheat-code in a game
just that it's a game of truth where perks are felt physically
and pain scar emotions
maybe its physical gains that ruins us
redundant info = i use cheat codes too while playin gta vice city stories tsk tsk.
the strive for that goal sometimes make us cross line we shoudnt have
maybe in life just take those gains as a bonus
not an essential but a bonus
because if not you'd feel uneasy if it not there maybe i should.
well tuck in my bed on a saturday night
a rainy rainy night
stary not so stary
tuck in my ever so important moo moo blanket
i wish i had control over things but then again if i had control
there so many things i wouldnt have discovered.
one of my previous close friends said it the revelations in life that keeps him intrugued
and going
everyone is fighting for a different cause if only i can tap on all the drives of the people into something good
i got to look deeper into life
it like in the oceans if you go deeper you can see clearer
but the pressure might kill you
literally too i might say.
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction - newton third law
good night world for i lay to sleep , it wont be long till i wake up.
wake me up a better man
@ 7:00 AM
the feeling that you are controlling things
deciding the fate of your decisions , boss of your own
like using a cheat-code in a game
just that it's a game of truth where perks are felt physically
and pain scar emotions
maybe its physical gains that ruins us
redundant info = i use cheat codes too while playin gta vice city stories tsk tsk.
the strive for that goal sometimes make us cross line we shoudnt have
maybe in life just take those gains as a bonus
not an essential but a bonus
because if not you'd feel uneasy if it not there maybe i should.
well tuck in my bed on a saturday night
a rainy rainy night
stary not so stary
tuck in my ever so important moo moo blanket
i wish i had control over things but then again if i had control
there so many things i wouldnt have discovered.
one of my previous close friends said it the revelations in life that keeps him intrugued
and going
everyone is fighting for a different cause if only i can tap on all the drives of the people into something good
i got to look deeper into life
it like in the oceans if you go deeper you can see clearer
but the pressure might kill you
literally too i might say.
For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction - newton third law
good night world for i lay to sleep , it wont be long till i wake up.
wake me up a better man
@ 7:00 AM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
those who can , do
those who cant , teach
even if its gonna take me till the end of the world i'll complete my task.
illuminati/freemason/new world order
if there was/is any of the so called organisations conspiring and planning all the events ,
occurence in the led up to global dominance and control.
what if?
i just want to ask one question of them
why?
what would they gain?
so the common folks who are they , just a part in the play a pawn in the chessboard
i guess there would also be a king/queen too
so someone would bring you *bad guys down too.
trust me
however high you jump , if we try we can jump higher
*well i dont judge whats bad and wrong but global dominance for what cause?
but its just conflicting with my values, i believe people shouldnt be puppets and all they should be allowed to breath , to live
however stupid/ignorant they are, they are my brothers, my sisters and i love them with all
my heart and i shall protect them even if i am not strong enought to and if i get ridicule
for it even by them.
feel the love generation
i am not saying anything , i am contented with life
maybe i dont even know shit as in fully
but what im saying is just dont affect people that matters to me
i might not matter to them but there was a reason why they mattered to me
so pls yea.
coded hdajshfhjgksshmilyskgjhfhhsjadh
“It is well enough that people of the nation do not understand our banking and monetary
system, for if they did, I believe there would be a revolution before tomorrow morning.” - Henry Ford
"I am concerned for the security of our great nation; not so much because of any threat from
without, but because of the insidious forces working from within." - General Douglas MacArthur
"We all choose to speak english but some english is more english than the others" - Ruby Pan
“If you think you’re too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito in the room.”
– Anita Roddick
"When nothing is everything but everything was nothing" - hans
ps: dim sum dollies is so funny
everyone should catch it, i only knew abt it yest
@ 7:02 PM
those who cant , teach
even if its gonna take me till the end of the world i'll complete my task.
illuminati/freemason/new world order
if there was/is any of the so called organisations conspiring and planning all the events ,
occurence in the led up to global dominance and control.
what if?
i just want to ask one question of them
why?
what would they gain?
so the common folks who are they , just a part in the play a pawn in the chessboard
i guess there would also be a king/queen too
so someone would bring you *bad guys down too.
trust me
however high you jump , if we try we can jump higher
*well i dont judge whats bad and wrong but global dominance for what cause?
but its just conflicting with my values, i believe people shouldnt be puppets and all they should be allowed to breath , to live
however stupid/ignorant they are, they are my brothers, my sisters and i love them with all
my heart and i shall protect them even if i am not strong enought to and if i get ridicule
for it even by them.
feel the love generation
i am not saying anything , i am contented with life
maybe i dont even know shit as in fully
but what im saying is just dont affect people that matters to me
i might not matter to them but there was a reason why they mattered to me
so pls yea.
coded hdajshfhjgksshmilyskgjhfhhsjadh
“It is well enough that people of the nation do not understand our banking and monetary
system, for if they did, I believe there would be a revolution before tomorrow morning.” - Henry Ford
"I am concerned for the security of our great nation; not so much because of any threat from
without, but because of the insidious forces working from within." - General Douglas MacArthur
"We all choose to speak english but some english is more english than the others" - Ruby Pan
“If you think you’re too small to have an impact, try going to bed with a mosquito in the room.”
– Anita Roddick
"When nothing is everything but everything was nothing" - hans
ps: dim sum dollies is so funny
everyone should catch it, i only knew abt it yest
@ 7:02 PM
"According to the seed that is sown,
So is the fruit you reap
The door of good will gather good result
The door of evil reaps evil result.
If you plant a good seed well,
Then you will enjoyed the good fruits."
a very very famous person
@ 1:48 AM
So is the fruit you reap
The door of good will gather good result
The door of evil reaps evil result.
If you plant a good seed well,
Then you will enjoyed the good fruits."
a very very famous person
@ 1:48 AM
Maybe I didn’t treat you
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn’t love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
Maybe I didn’t hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you I’m so happy that you’re mine
If I make you feel second best
Girl, I’m sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn’t died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
@ 12:51 AM
Quite as good as I should have
Maybe I didn’t love you
Quite as often as I could have
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
Maybe I didn’t hold you
All those lonely, lonely times
And I guess I never told you I’m so happy that you’re mine
If I make you feel second best
Girl, I’m sorry I was blind
You were always on my mind
You were always on my mind
Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn’t died
Give me, give me one more chance
To keep you satisfied, satisfied
Little things I should have said and done
I just never took the time
@ 12:51 AM
Friday, July 20, 2007
"Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath awayI'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame"
"And whatever it may take
However my heart breakes
I'll keep singing in the rain'till your back again
and whoever that changed your mind
whoever that makes you blind
I'll keep waiting here for you
All I ventured but nothing gained
I'm walking through the rain
Trying to keep a fading flame alive
Help!Help meBaby
I'm lonely oh so lonely
Will I ever feel your love again
Am I really losing you my friend
Your absent talking your missing light
Makes me lonely on a Saturday night"
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
@ 11:35 PM
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath awayI'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame"
"And whatever it may take
However my heart breakes
I'll keep singing in the rain'till your back again
and whoever that changed your mind
whoever that makes you blind
I'll keep waiting here for you
All I ventured but nothing gained
I'm walking through the rain
Trying to keep a fading flame alive
Help!Help meBaby
I'm lonely oh so lonely
Will I ever feel your love again
Am I really losing you my friend
Your absent talking your missing light
Makes me lonely on a Saturday night"
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows
@ 11:35 PM
its not that im affected by flamers or what shit
but wtf is your problem?
seriously
dont you guys have a life to live?
well i dont care about what others think abt me other than people who matters to me
but im concern about the goin ons
who in blue moon are you guys
well like in my world if i have a problem with sumone i ll just go their face and settle it
come to me man if you guys have anything to say
i dont mind anything seriously
and whats the f issue down here
i f love a girl
so?
whats ur f prob?
@ 3:15 PM
but wtf is your problem?
seriously
dont you guys have a life to live?
well i dont care about what others think abt me other than people who matters to me
but im concern about the goin ons
who in blue moon are you guys
well like in my world if i have a problem with sumone i ll just go their face and settle it
come to me man if you guys have anything to say
i dont mind anything seriously
and whats the f issue down here
i f love a girl
so?
whats ur f prob?
@ 3:15 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
go to your goo goo doll
abandon this old doll
i have done my time
i wasnt a good toy but i did serve my time dutifully
well thats the cycle right
all right i get it.
im waiting to be recycled
hope u are happy with the new doll
my heart will light up to see you smile
whatever it takes.
in its purest form
to practise what i preach
so i guess babe , see ya
@ 10:56 PM
abandon this old doll
i have done my time
i wasnt a good toy but i did serve my time dutifully
well thats the cycle right
all right i get it.
im waiting to be recycled
hope u are happy with the new doll
my heart will light up to see you smile
whatever it takes.
in its purest form
to practise what i preach
so i guess babe , see ya
@ 10:56 PM
Rock is not in the eyes but in the bones
Rock is not heard thru the ears but understanding thru one's soul
Rock in not in the shirt , but apparent in the heart that bears the shirt
Rock is education , rock is evident as an evidence
Rock on my friends , rock on
My real brother told me this
"You are just a man , you cant save the world"
he meant well , but i yearn not to make a difference but just to make a smile
touch whoever i can in any way
and in the process discover myself
i dont want to save the world , i want to save myself from the cold within
I saw an old uncle who was spotting a red cap
he was very old and he look sicklyand on his old wrinkly hands he was gripping his wife's wheelchair handlebarhis wife is wheelchair bound
it was about one in the afternoon and the sun was spotting hot
he was sweating thru the lethargy of pushing the wheelchair and the weather of course
but he forced his red cap to his wife
she declined it but he scolded her to wear it
his wife cudnt understand his actions
but sir ,i do
i believe you love your wife
and she knows that too =)
im on the train otw to a test in school
my mind keeps thinking of steph
isit right?
whats right whats wrong
who cares, its my life
i call the shots aight
i went to the lagoon with my family , its so peaceful
eating, talkin about old times
moving to the winds beat
it was all very enriching to the soul
i love my niece and nephews
anyway i went jb prior to that with my brother just the two of us
johor is gonna have a new checkpoint yays
but i kinda miss the old onei dunnoe why
i feel sad about it
seems so memorable haha
at night i went to lagoon view at bayshore and sarahs rooftop with far aft that.
we've got a new friend , micheal
he's a rare
his passion runs deep i would say
so everybody got high ahahaha
"where were you while we were gettin high
some day u will find me company the landslide of the champange supernova"
i love the night,it made me feel love which is rare hahaha
i live in my own mind currently.
one of the most hardest issues in life is to decipher between the people that really loves
you and those who seeks something from you.
nobody said it was easy
at the end of the day whatever that you did was your choice
@ 6:08 PM
Rock is not heard thru the ears but understanding thru one's soul
Rock in not in the shirt , but apparent in the heart that bears the shirt
Rock is education , rock is evident as an evidence
Rock on my friends , rock on
My real brother told me this
"You are just a man , you cant save the world"
he meant well , but i yearn not to make a difference but just to make a smile
touch whoever i can in any way
and in the process discover myself
i dont want to save the world , i want to save myself from the cold within
I saw an old uncle who was spotting a red cap
he was very old and he look sicklyand on his old wrinkly hands he was gripping his wife's wheelchair handlebarhis wife is wheelchair bound
it was about one in the afternoon and the sun was spotting hot
he was sweating thru the lethargy of pushing the wheelchair and the weather of course
but he forced his red cap to his wife
she declined it but he scolded her to wear it
his wife cudnt understand his actions
but sir ,i do
i believe you love your wife
and she knows that too =)
im on the train otw to a test in school
my mind keeps thinking of steph
isit right?
whats right whats wrong
who cares, its my life
i call the shots aight
i went to the lagoon with my family , its so peaceful
eating, talkin about old times
moving to the winds beat
it was all very enriching to the soul
i love my niece and nephews
anyway i went jb prior to that with my brother just the two of us
johor is gonna have a new checkpoint yays
but i kinda miss the old onei dunnoe why
i feel sad about it
seems so memorable haha
at night i went to lagoon view at bayshore and sarahs rooftop with far aft that.
we've got a new friend , micheal
he's a rare
his passion runs deep i would say
so everybody got high ahahaha
"where were you while we were gettin high
some day u will find me company the landslide of the champange supernova"
i love the night,it made me feel love which is rare hahaha
i live in my own mind currently.
one of the most hardest issues in life is to decipher between the people that really loves
you and those who seeks something from you.
nobody said it was easy
at the end of the day whatever that you did was your choice
@ 6:08 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
everyone makes mistakes even spidey
but importantlyu got to do the hardest thing first ; forgive yourself
"Sleepless nights,dreadful dreams,are haunting me.
The mysterious soundsof the night,are very frightening me.
Panic and rage
Runs through my body
The devil is trying to get in.
Day after day
I fight off the urges
That would be so satisfying
A battle rages
Deep within my soul
It's all I can do to hold on.
Prayer is my weapon,
faith gives me peace of mind,
to stop the demons from taking over.
Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up,
As the battle still rages
I pray and pray
For the fight to end
But I know the battle is still within."
@ 7:37 PM
but importantlyu got to do the hardest thing first ; forgive yourself
"Sleepless nights,dreadful dreams,are haunting me.
The mysterious soundsof the night,are very frightening me.
Panic and rage
Runs through my body
The devil is trying to get in.
Day after day
I fight off the urges
That would be so satisfying
A battle rages
Deep within my soul
It's all I can do to hold on.
Prayer is my weapon,
faith gives me peace of mind,
to stop the demons from taking over.
Depression knocks me down,
Grace picks me back up,
As the battle still rages
I pray and pray
For the fight to end
But I know the battle is still within."
@ 7:37 PM
"Mama now I'm coming home
I'm not all you wished of me
But a mother's love for her sonUnspoken,
Help me be
I took your love for granted
And all the things you said to me
I need your arms to welcome me
But a cold stone's all I see"
When a Man Lies He Murders
Some Part of the World
These Are the Pale Deaths Which Men
Miscall Their Lives
All this I Cannot Bear to Witness Any Longer
Cannot the Kingdom of Salvation
Take Me Home
@ 12:48 AM
I'm not all you wished of me
But a mother's love for her sonUnspoken,
Help me be
I took your love for granted
And all the things you said to me
I need your arms to welcome me
But a cold stone's all I see"
When a Man Lies He Murders
Some Part of the World
These Are the Pale Deaths Which Men
Miscall Their Lives
All this I Cannot Bear to Witness Any Longer
Cannot the Kingdom of Salvation
Take Me Home
@ 12:48 AM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
i know i dont deserve to quote you
but my life is not in the books or in the movies noah calhoun
im a man living in the streets but i feel you and respect
"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough. "
-from the notebook by nicholas sparks
@ 8:18 PM
but my life is not in the books or in the movies noah calhoun
im a man living in the streets but i feel you and respect
"I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I’ve led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I’ve loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough. "
-from the notebook by nicholas sparks
@ 8:18 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Many men, wish death upon me
Blood in my eye dawg and I can't see I'm trying to be what I'm destined to be
And niggas trying to take my life awayI put a hole in a nigga for fucking with me
My back on the wall, now you gon' see
Better watch how you talk, when you talk about me'
Cause I'll come and take your life away
Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon meLord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Now these pussy niggas putting money on my head Go on and get your refund motherfucker, I ain't dead
I'm the diamond in the dirt, that ain't been found
I'm the underground king and I ain't been crowned
When I rhyme, something special happen every timeI'm the greatest, something like Ali in his prime
I walk the block with the bundles I've been knocked on the humble
Swing the ox when I rumble Show your ass what my gun do
Got a temper nigga, go'head, lose your head
Turn your back on me, get clapped and lose your legs
I walk around gun on my waist, chip on my shoulder
Till I bust a clip in your face, pussy, this beef ain't over
Many men, many, many, many, many menWish death upon meLord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred
This if for my niggas on the block, twisting trees and cigars
For the niggas on lock, doing life behind bars
I don't see only god can judge me, 'cause I see things clear
Quick these crackers will give my black ass a hundred years
I'm like Paulie in Goodfellas, you can call me the DonLike Malcolm by any means,
with my gun in my palm
Slim switched sides on me, let niggas ride on me
I thought we was cool, why you want me to die homie?
Many men, many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me Have mercy on my soul
Somewhere my heart turned cold Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
Every night I talk to god, but he don't say nothing backI know he protecting me, but I still stay with my gat
In my nightmares, niggas keep pulling techs on me
Psych says some bitch done, put a hex on me
The feds didn't know much, when Pac got shotI got a kite from the pens that told me,
Tuck got knockedI ain't gonna spell it out for you motherfuckers all the time
Are you illiterate nigga? You can't read between the lines
In the bible it says, what goes around, comes around
Hommo shot me three weeks later he got shot down
Now it's clear that I'm here, for a real reason'
Cause he got hit like I got hit, but he ain't fucking breathing
Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men Many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
@ 10:24 PM
Blood in my eye dawg and I can't see I'm trying to be what I'm destined to be
And niggas trying to take my life awayI put a hole in a nigga for fucking with me
My back on the wall, now you gon' see
Better watch how you talk, when you talk about me'
Cause I'll come and take your life away
Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon meLord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Now these pussy niggas putting money on my head Go on and get your refund motherfucker, I ain't dead
I'm the diamond in the dirt, that ain't been found
I'm the underground king and I ain't been crowned
When I rhyme, something special happen every timeI'm the greatest, something like Ali in his prime
I walk the block with the bundles I've been knocked on the humble
Swing the ox when I rumble Show your ass what my gun do
Got a temper nigga, go'head, lose your head
Turn your back on me, get clapped and lose your legs
I walk around gun on my waist, chip on my shoulder
Till I bust a clip in your face, pussy, this beef ain't over
Many men, many, many, many, many menWish death upon meLord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred
This if for my niggas on the block, twisting trees and cigars
For the niggas on lock, doing life behind bars
I don't see only god can judge me, 'cause I see things clear
Quick these crackers will give my black ass a hundred years
I'm like Paulie in Goodfellas, you can call me the DonLike Malcolm by any means,
with my gun in my palm
Slim switched sides on me, let niggas ride on me
I thought we was cool, why you want me to die homie?
Many men, many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
Lord I don't cry no more Don't look to the sky no more
Have mercy on me Have mercy on my soul
Somewhere my heart turned cold Have mercy on many men
Many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
Every night I talk to god, but he don't say nothing backI know he protecting me, but I still stay with my gat
In my nightmares, niggas keep pulling techs on me
Psych says some bitch done, put a hex on me
The feds didn't know much, when Pac got shotI got a kite from the pens that told me,
Tuck got knockedI ain't gonna spell it out for you motherfuckers all the time
Are you illiterate nigga? You can't read between the lines
In the bible it says, what goes around, comes around
Hommo shot me three weeks later he got shot down
Now it's clear that I'm here, for a real reason'
Cause he got hit like I got hit, but he ain't fucking breathing
Many men, many, many, many, many men
Wish death upon me Lord I don't cry no more
Don't look to the sky no more Have mercy on me
Have mercy on my soul Somewhere my heart turned cold
Have mercy on many men Many, many, many, many men Wish death upon me
@ 10:24 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
maybe some people were born to win in life
and some werent.
"The way your life changes (if it changes) is your choice. The outcome is up to you."
My fster horoscope haha
@ 8:19 PM
and some werent.
"The way your life changes (if it changes) is your choice. The outcome is up to you."
My fster horoscope haha
when life fails you , you dont fail yourself
im happy at least i have true friends(sometime not so true when high) thanks world
@ 8:19 PM
@ 4:34 PM
i respect the way she writes, life is about living in alot of community
people having different ideas
different religions
and i believe u rarely hear sumone brave enough to voice out like this
so here goes
From: Rashid Khan rkhan@ee.tufts.edu
When you look at me
All that you can see
is the scarf that covers my hair
My words you can't hear
because you're too full of fear,
mouth gaping, all you do is stare
You think it's not my choicein your own "liberation" rejoice.
You think I'm uneducated,trapped, oppressed and subjugated,
You're so thankful that you're free.
But non-Muslim woman you've got it wrong
You're the weak and I'm the strong.
For I've rejected the trap of man.
Fancy clothes - low neck, short skirt
those are devices for pain and hurt.
I'm not falling for that little plan.
I'm a person with ideas and thought.
I'm not for sale,
I can't be bought.
I'm me - not a fancy toy,
I won't decorate anyone's arm,
nor be promoted for my charm.
There is more to be than playing coy.
Living life as a balancing game - mother,
daughter, wife, nurse, cleaner, cook, lover
and still bring home a wage.
Who thought up this modern "freedom"?
Where man can love'em and man can leave'em.
This is not free, but life in a cage.
Always jumping to a male agenda
competing on his terms.
No job share, no creche facilities,
no feeding and nappy changing amenities
No time off for menstrual pain,
"hormones" they laugh "what a shame"
No equal pay equal skill
your job they can always fill.
No promotion unless you're sterilised.
No promotion unless you're sexually terrorised.
And this is liberation?Non-Muslim woman you can have your life.
Mine - it has less strife.
I cover and I get respected,
surely that's to be expected,
for I won't demean the feminine,I won't live to male criterion,
I dance to my own tune
and I hope you see this very soon.
For your own sake - wake up and use your sight.
Are you so sure that you are right? From a Muslim Woman
@ 3:52 PM
people having different ideas
different religions
and i believe u rarely hear sumone brave enough to voice out like this
so here goes
From: Rashid Khan rkhan@ee.tufts.edu
When you look at me
All that you can see
is the scarf that covers my hair
My words you can't hear
because you're too full of fear,
mouth gaping, all you do is stare
You think it's not my choicein your own "liberation" rejoice.
You think I'm uneducated,trapped, oppressed and subjugated,
You're so thankful that you're free.
But non-Muslim woman you've got it wrong
You're the weak and I'm the strong.
For I've rejected the trap of man.
Fancy clothes - low neck, short skirt
those are devices for pain and hurt.
I'm not falling for that little plan.
I'm a person with ideas and thought.
I'm not for sale,
I can't be bought.
I'm me - not a fancy toy,
I won't decorate anyone's arm,
nor be promoted for my charm.
There is more to be than playing coy.
Living life as a balancing game - mother,
daughter, wife, nurse, cleaner, cook, lover
and still bring home a wage.
Who thought up this modern "freedom"?
Where man can love'em and man can leave'em.
This is not free, but life in a cage.
Always jumping to a male agenda
competing on his terms.
No job share, no creche facilities,
no feeding and nappy changing amenities
No time off for menstrual pain,
"hormones" they laugh "what a shame"
No equal pay equal skill
your job they can always fill.
No promotion unless you're sterilised.
No promotion unless you're sexually terrorised.
And this is liberation?Non-Muslim woman you can have your life.
Mine - it has less strife.
I cover and I get respected,
surely that's to be expected,
for I won't demean the feminine,I won't live to male criterion,
I dance to my own tune
and I hope you see this very soon.
For your own sake - wake up and use your sight.
Are you so sure that you are right? From a Muslim Woman
@ 3:52 PM
While growing up i was close to namely two people
till today they are still very dear to me
my sister and my mother
notice the hierachyal
though we arent as close now
they taught me one impt thing that guys are jerks
my mum would go saying "all guys are the same they are this this this ,
they would do this this this"and i would sit in silence and said to myself that one day
one fine day i would prove her wrong
im not like any other guys , i wont hurt girls
while growing up i would often see my sister crying at her room and try coaxing by hugging her
i promise that i wont hurt girls
it pained me so much to see my sister cryin
i cried too sometimes with her cause i love her
i din understood the tears at that time
suddenly it came to me that i've became the men that i grew up detesting
even if i dont do it on purpose and intentionally
even if i dont do evil stuff to them
even if im not as mean as other guys
i still hurt themi hurt them emotionally which is as bad
I quote from tricia "hans its easy to find you , just find the trails of broken hearts"
im really sorry to all the girls i've hurt
i really am
i mean not just recently
there were alot of girls in the past that i've hur
ti didnt understand what it was abou
it took me so long to understand something so simple
to justify my sories and to stop being one ,
i hans am gonna stay away from all girls* emotionally
till i get my acts right
i dunoe hw long its gonna take me
but i shall i'll try my best man
to all that know me personally
u all know this is going to be a big step in life for me
cause when theres hans there girls
well , they would be girls
but there wont be emotions
im shutting the system down in a way or rather
to all who thinks this decision is stupid, impulsive and childish and have somethings to say
lick the stamp paste it on the complaints
and send it to some other people who cares
because well i dont really give a ratass about it anymore
thats the way its going to be.
i'll still have friends thou
well,im not perfect and i gladly accept it
*refers to except steph*(understand yea my friends would)
to those who dont understand call me but refer to next para
so anyway i lost my cellphone
or rather sumone stole it*god bless the soul of the person who took it
enrich his mind with good thoughts in the future
so i would be out of contact just contact FAR to contact me
he'll know where to find me
im taking this chance to be alone and with friends
to find myself
to improve on myself
to knowledgedify myself
to open myself
to make me a better man cause my soul feels shame
but i would grow thru this pain lord im doing all i can to be a better man
im gonna concerntrate on three things namely ; soccer , gym and motorbike
i also realise the reason why im sad about losing my phone , im losing ur msgs two of them , our pictures and the recording but who cares, u dont , i do
all my post after this and including this is very jibberish and crappy so to those not interested you are not obliged to read its just my thoughts and maybe some other ppls thought.so remember it was ur choice.so if u cant take dont talk it
@ 3:38 PM
till today they are still very dear to me
my sister and my mother
notice the hierachyal
though we arent as close now
they taught me one impt thing that guys are jerks
my mum would go saying "all guys are the same they are this this this ,
they would do this this this"and i would sit in silence and said to myself that one day
one fine day i would prove her wrong
im not like any other guys , i wont hurt girls
while growing up i would often see my sister crying at her room and try coaxing by hugging her
i promise that i wont hurt girls
it pained me so much to see my sister cryin
i cried too sometimes with her cause i love her
i din understood the tears at that time
suddenly it came to me that i've became the men that i grew up detesting
even if i dont do it on purpose and intentionally
even if i dont do evil stuff to them
even if im not as mean as other guys
i still hurt themi hurt them emotionally which is as bad
I quote from tricia "hans its easy to find you , just find the trails of broken hearts"
im really sorry to all the girls i've hurt
i really am
i mean not just recently
there were alot of girls in the past that i've hur
ti didnt understand what it was abou
it took me so long to understand something so simple
to justify my sories and to stop being one ,
i hans am gonna stay away from all girls* emotionally
till i get my acts right
i dunoe hw long its gonna take me
but i shall i'll try my best man
to all that know me personally
u all know this is going to be a big step in life for me
cause when theres hans there girls
well , they would be girls
but there wont be emotions
im shutting the system down in a way or rather
to all who thinks this decision is stupid, impulsive and childish and have somethings to say
lick the stamp paste it on the complaints
and send it to some other people who cares
because well i dont really give a ratass about it anymore
thats the way its going to be.
i'll still have friends thou
well,im not perfect and i gladly accept it
*refers to except steph*(understand yea my friends would)
to those who dont understand call me but refer to next para
so anyway i lost my cellphone
or rather sumone stole it*god bless the soul of the person who took it
enrich his mind with good thoughts in the future
so i would be out of contact just contact FAR to contact me
he'll know where to find me
im taking this chance to be alone and with friends
to find myself
to improve on myself
to knowledgedify myself
to open myself
to make me a better man cause my soul feels shame
but i would grow thru this pain lord im doing all i can to be a better man
im gonna concerntrate on three things namely ; soccer , gym and motorbike
i also realise the reason why im sad about losing my phone , im losing ur msgs two of them , our pictures and the recording but who cares, u dont , i do
all my post after this and including this is very jibberish and crappy so to those not interested you are not obliged to read its just my thoughts and maybe some other ppls thought.so remember it was ur choice.so if u cant take dont talk it
@ 3:38 PM
Sunday, July 8, 2007
many believe they were born to do something special in life
or a reason being that they were born
or an ultimate goal to carry out
i was brought up to fufill alot of expectations impose by others and myself
but im just saying that perhaps
none of them would sort of make sense if you werent there
this pursuit of happiness with you
might be the one of the most defining moments
and probably one of the most special occurence in life
well steph ,
there comes a time in a mans life where he has to stop all his crap
well , i wont stop it for anyone else.
i know i have to stop
i dint know it then, i dint know it was YOU
forgive my negligence ,
and the best way to say sorry to sumone whose water you spilled is by compensating him with all the water in the world =)
"i yearn not to make a difference
but to make a smile
and if thou think im still badwell,
i dont care at all."
you arent, i am
i yearn to make a difference not a smile
now i get it, its not about being the hero.
@ 11:57 PM
or a reason being that they were born
or an ultimate goal to carry out
i was brought up to fufill alot of expectations impose by others and myself
but im just saying that perhaps
none of them would sort of make sense if you werent there
this pursuit of happiness with you
might be the one of the most defining moments
and probably one of the most special occurence in life
well steph ,
there comes a time in a mans life where he has to stop all his crap
well , i wont stop it for anyone else.
i know i have to stop
i dint know it then, i dint know it was YOU
forgive my negligence ,
and the best way to say sorry to sumone whose water you spilled is by compensating him with all the water in the world =)
"i yearn not to make a difference
but to make a smile
and if thou think im still badwell,
i dont care at all."
you arent, i am
i yearn to make a difference not a smile
now i get it, its not about being the hero.
@ 11:57 PM
This romeo is bleeding
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
Chorus:And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh,
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close,When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hearI'll wish I was him 'cause those words were mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you - I could
If you told me to die for you - I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
ChorusAnd I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't
I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you
@ 12:48 AM
But you can't see his blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
Chorus:And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh,
Some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close,When he pulls you near
When he says the words
You've been needing to hearI'll wish I was him 'cause those words were mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you - I could
If you told me to die for you - I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
ChorusAnd I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't
I know when I die, you'll be on my mindAnd I'll love you
@ 12:48 AM
Friday, July 6, 2007
True love. Is it normal,
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?
Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions, but convinced
it had to happen this way--in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice?
Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected
principles, and cast the moral from the peak?
Yes on both accounts.
Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing--it's an insult.
The language they use--deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,the elaborate mutual routines--
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!
It's hard even to guess how far things might go if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered?What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?
True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.
Let the people who never find true love keep saying that there's no such thing.
Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.
@ 6:51 PM
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?
Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions, but convinced
it had to happen this way--in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice?
Yes it does.
Doesn't it disrupt our painstakingly erected
principles, and cast the moral from the peak?
Yes on both accounts.
Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake?
Listen to them laughing--it's an insult.
The language they use--deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,the elaborate mutual routines--
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!
It's hard even to guess how far things might go if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered?What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?
True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.
Let the people who never find true love keep saying that there's no such thing.
Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.
@ 6:51 PM
"I know you think that I shouldn't still love you
I tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
That I cause nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
all that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be"
@ 5:21 PM
I tell you that
But if I didn't say it
Well, I'd still have felt it
Where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess
And destruction to come back again
That I cause nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "It's over"
Then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
all that was there
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be"
@ 5:21 PM
Thursday, July 5, 2007
if you have a dream protect it
seriously all of them would try to affect you
cause they themselves are not capable of it
so u got to be strong
persevere
dont care what they say
dont care what they do
they dunoe your love for it
they dont
u do
so your the only one that matters in this
so get of your back stop crying and put in more effort and stay
stay put to your dreams
if not dont dream , dare to dream , dare to do
im a fighter not a quitter
at time when u need to cry , cry and come back better
- hans
@ 10:19 PM
seriously all of them would try to affect you
cause they themselves are not capable of it
so u got to be strong
persevere
dont care what they say
dont care what they do
they dunoe your love for it
they dont
u do
so your the only one that matters in this
so get of your back stop crying and put in more effort and stay
stay put to your dreams
if not dont dream , dare to dream , dare to do
im a fighter not a quitter
at time when u need to cry , cry and come back better
- hans
@ 10:19 PM
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
i went for my first training on tuesday
it felt good. seriously
damn tired balls, stamina really needs improving
coach asked me to come down for more trg though
which is good
haha so after trg, dinner at funan with far , his sister and nis
and some serious dicussion on impt things
i was being serious
rare man
we went to georges , we've became regulars there balls ahaha
we came in they all know our name already hahaha
it was quite nice , we were sitting with a mauritius guy
and a chinese canadian guy and there was me , far and cameron an austalian backpacker cum junkie hahaha
what it you were born for something
but that something is not the right thing to do
@ 12:27 PM
it felt good. seriously
damn tired balls, stamina really needs improving
coach asked me to come down for more trg though
which is good
haha so after trg, dinner at funan with far , his sister and nis
and some serious dicussion on impt things
i was being serious
rare man
we went to georges , we've became regulars there balls ahaha
we came in they all know our name already hahaha
it was quite nice , we were sitting with a mauritius guy
and a chinese canadian guy and there was me , far and cameron an austalian backpacker cum junkie hahaha
what it you were born for something
but that something is not the right thing to do
@ 12:27 PM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
"It’s never been easy for me
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my furniture, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said relax
And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former glories
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve killed all my plants
And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet"
Everything i want to say to you except the plants part and change frankie to far
@ 8:59 PM
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my furniture, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said relax
And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former glories
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve killed all my plants
And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet"
Everything i want to say to you except the plants part and change frankie to far
@ 8:59 PM
Dont let your past dictate who you are going to be in the future
but let it be part of who you are in the future =)
"I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Oh oh oh"
@ 7:45 PM
but let it be part of who you are in the future =)
"I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
Oh oh oh There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again You know that I'll be there for you in the end
Oh oh oh"
@ 7:45 PM